Everything is clearing,
My mind is now so free,
A psychologic dealing,
Of what was once all me.

This feeling, the sensation,
Running through my veins,
All the torture's ending,
My whole outlook has changed.

I'd give all my soul,
To permanently feel this way,
But, sadly, I do know,
That this feeling will not stay.

Everything is blurred now,
My vision is not clear,
God, it feels so perfect,
I'm barely even here.

The whiskey makes it mellow,
The speed makes me concentrate,
Everything's alright now,
Please, just go away.

I never knew this existed,
This perfect way of feeling,
You could never comprehend this,
You'd probably think it "scary".

I'm staring in a dope show,
I'm dancing in the stars,
It's the perfect way to go,
Without trying so damn hard.

Nothing seems to matter,
In such a great new way,
Your voice no longer clatters,
And it's a brand new day.

I can finally rest,
I now have peace at mind,
The breath, once in my chest,
Sends shivers down my spine.

I don't have to worry,
About anything right now,
But, soon it will be stormy,
Because we always gotta come down.

I'm staring in a dope show,
I'm dancing in the stars,
It's the perfect way to go,
Without trying so damn hard.

I've found the perfect Bible,
This is my new belief,
I'm conforming to a madness,
It's like the best disease.

I feel just like I'm floating,
Although I have a lisp,
I'm laughing 'till I'm choking,
Heaven must be this.

I'm staring at a screen,
And it talks back to me,
I only want to scream,
From all out ecstacy.

It's just like I am dreaming,
Though I'll pay for this mistake,
Then, I'll feel like screaming,
And lying in a grave.

But, right now, this is priceless,
I'd trade the world for this,
Maybe I'm an addict,
Lost in my sweet bliss.

The pills just keep on coming,
The liquor, how it flows,
My mind is owned and bound now,
I'm losing all control.

I stumble and I falter,
You command, and I obey,
I have been so altered,
But, by choice, I stay.

But, the whiskey bottle's breaking,
My pill box emptied out,
My body isn't shaking,
Oh god, I'm coming down.

I'm sickened, and my head aches,
From all this lack of sleep,
My thoughts now over-bear me,
Why do I have to think?

I'm walking like a zombie,
I'm in a hot cold-sweat,
I want someone to hold me,
And, now, I have regrets.

Now, I feel so sorry,
For this sin that I have done,
I honestly feel bad,
But, my god, it was so fun.

Everyone's so mad now,
And, I really cannot blame them,
But, they just don't grasp it,
It's my way to forget him.

So, now, I crash and burn,
On my bed laid in my room,
And, all I seem to know,
Is that this happened way too soon.

An addict, though I am,
At least I have escape,
From this hell you call a "world",
This way, I don't have to stay.

And, I know you may think different,
Of this trip I call a dream,
But, this is my sweet Bible,
My whiskey and my speed.

I've found a brand new Bible,
It's perfect in every way,
Better than calling angels,
I could always stay this way.

This is my new belief,
And, I'll bet my life on it,
I'll gamble me away,
I'll be my own prophet.

I'm conforming to a madness,
Still, I've never been so happy,
I know your gonna yell,
And say it's blasphemy.

It's like the best disease,
That anyone could catch,
Everything's okay now,
But, I know this sounds far-fetched.

I'm staring in a dope show,
I'm dancing in the stars,
It's the perfect way to go,
Without trying so damn hard.

So, I'll take my pills again,
And, I'll drink my poison down,
As long as I can make,
This noisy world drown out.

Because, when I drug myself,
To the great beyond,
Everything's okay,
When I'm passed out on the lawn.

The feeling's unimaginable,
Like the essence that was your touch,
And, when I feel like this,
Nothing is too much.

I feel like I can fly,
And, I'll never, ever fall,
And, even when I do,
There'll be much more alcohol.

So, go ahead and sing me,
Some whiskey lullaby,
I might just sing along,
If you'll give this stuff a try.

For, when I feel like this,
I can't help but to smile,
It's all just so amazing,
So, I'll make it last a while.

I see your point of view,
Your worry and your hurt,
And, I know you really hate it,
When I talk and I just slur.

But, when I'm so far gone,
Nothing brings me down,
It's like the world's on fire,
But, no one makes a sound.

I'm staring in a dope show,
I'm dancing in the stars,
It's the perfect way to go,
Without trying so damn hard.

Yeah, you call me an addict,
But what that really means,
Is that I have found me something,
That brings me to my knees.

I'm falling down with pleasure,
I'm seeing all the truth,
And, god, I feel so happy,
Now, the world is not unglued.

So, I'll star in my own dope show,
And, I'll dance amongst the stars,
Because, I just can't do it,
It's all gotten so hard.

You could say I'm giving up,
But, I think I found the key,
To my personal Jesus,
I'll bow down on my knees.

Part of me wants free,
But, I think I'll block that out,
Because my mistress calls,
And her name is "Want some now?".

I see your point of view,
And, I've also felt that way,
That's what got me here,
To this over-ground live grave.

Maybe this will ease,
And, I'll get better as it goes,
But, right now, in my life,
Whiskey and speed is all I know.