Soberality is destroying me.

It's taking everything I need,
And it cuts me, so deep,
Because, I need the narcotics,
That made me forget you,
And every single thing that you ever put me through.

Hate me for everything I stand for now,
Because, I need my releases,
Just to block memories out,
And, accomplishments from me,
Are just too much to ask for now,
Because, I'm drowning in shallow waters,
And cannot find a way out.

I want to get so far away,
That my mind cannot remember you,
Or any of the things we did together,
And, I know it seems so much to ask,
But, please just think of me,
I want you to know,
I'll never forget,
The first time you looked at me.

Forgive my emotions for returning,
I need more time to this sick mourning.

I have to destroy the part in my mind,
The one that could never leave you behind.

I'm lost in an oasis of what was you and me,
I'm being destroyed by things that cannot now be,
And, only you can save me,
But, it's not going to happen,
So, I must recreate me,
But, I cannot do that sin.

I apologize for the things I am feeling,
I cannot comprehend,
That we have been an ending,

And, I need you to hold me,
Just one more time,
I need you to make me,
Perfectly fine.

I have to destroy the part in my mind,
The one that could never leave you behind.

Demolition will take it's course, eventually,
Then, maybe, I can leave you behind forever,
But, I know I'll always love you,
And, that will not change, ever.

I listen to songs,
That remind me of you,
I want all the good things,
To fade back on through.

I miss you.