Don't go trying to convince yourself.
He hates you.
He said what he said and meant it.
Not even a small blip on the screen.
No matter how much you tried to convince yourself in the beginning.
So don't try.
Don't even think.
Because if you do then you'll only get more false hope.
You'll choke on those words that you wish to say and live with it!
If you don't then you'll cry.
Break down in front of all those that are "better".
And you can't let them see that because that's just more ammo against you.
You have to live with the knowledge that you're nothing,
and that's more than enough.