Everything's coming back right now
and it's almost like an overload on my mind
and I, I can't breathe
for all the times I've cried, all the times I've bled
all of them are like a weight, slowly crashing down and not wanting to lift back up again
and I'm just so afraid of going back to the way everything used to be
because I was lost then, and confused, and hurting.
I hurt so badly that I had to scream it all out by bleeding
and now I want to scream
and soon I'll want to bleed.
until my heart feels better, and my mind feels better, and so I can get the air back into my lungs.
Back then I couldn't breathe.
Right now I can't breathe.