Choices - "... And All I Become, was a Dead corpse"
I am in the hospital,
and the pain all over is endless.
I see my mother weeping constantly.
I try to tell her not to be sad,
I try to tell her I'm sorry.
But I am too weak to speak.
The only thing I can do is breathe.
Breathe until the time runs out.
I look at my sister.
I try to get her attention,
But she is also in shock.
Her hands covering her face,
as silent tears stream down her cheeks.
I try to tell her,
Don't screw up in life like me.
Don't choose the path I did.
Look at what has happened to me.
I thought doing all this brought happiness.
it didn't bring that happiness.
At first I was happy,
I thought I had friends.
The drugs made me feel good.
I was the popular one.
after a while,
I would come to class googly-eyed, sis.
I would smell like drugs.
No one wanted to sit beside me.
My popularity was no more.
My grades began to drop.
Sis, I failed in life.
I deserved it sis.
But this is an example for you sis.
I don't want you to be like me.
I want you to achieve something in life, sis.
I want you to be happy.
This is my message to you sis.
Become something in life, sis.
I love you and mum dearly.
As my eyes have opened for the last time,
I pray to god,
that he will take care of my family.
As I closed my eyes for the last time,
my only wish would be,
that if I had another chance,
if I could live life one more time,
I would make sure,
that I would never do the same mistakes again.
And all I had become,
was a dead corpse.