May 16, 2007

In my quest to find you, I've acquainted myself with people I never would've imagined myself to be with. It shames me to no end when I realize that deep down inside of me, I've changed, somewhat; and I have become one of THEM. All because you're not here with me.

I fooled around with a lot of guys to take my mind off of you and to make up for your absence in my life.

It even reaches the point where I start to pretend that they're you.

And for a while…I actually believed they were…

And I was happy…

But then at the end of the day…

It dawns on me that I go home empty hearted and missing you even more so than before…