Chapter Five

Matt finally lifted the half-asleep Jordan in his arms, whispering goodbye to Charlie about an hour after he arrived. When the door was shut Charlie turned around to find that Ben had finally come out of his room.

"Done hiding I see?"

"Yeah. I just couldn't deal with him glaring at me like that, so I went and played with Jordan. Why did Madi say that she wanted to move out?"

"She just said that she needed some time alone, which might be good for her. What did you say to her when you talked to her on your lunch break?" Charlie asked as she sat down on the couch where Ben quickly followed suit.

"I just told her to stay with Matt, and she told me that she could not be with him, and that she was going to move in with Susie, probably until she had the baby. She told me that she would be very hormonal while pregnant, and said that she might say something to Matt that she would regret just because she is pregnant. I told her that she was being crazy, and that Matt would probably forgive her. She just said that she wasn't looking for forgiveness, she was looking for clarity."

"Well, that is pretty bitchy, but I think she may be doing the right thing. If they try to fix it now, they may just be forcing it to work without realizing what went wrong in the first place."

"You were singing a very different tune this morning. What changed?"

"I talked to Adam, and he brought the clear psychiatrist perspective to it."

"But you're a psychiatrist, and you thought that they should be together now."

"Well, my mind is clouded with a biased view. I'm not looking for overall happiness on both sides, and what would be the best for the couple on the whole. I was just thinking about what would make Matt happy, and I was willing to do anything to achieve that. Adam pointed out to me the right approach to the situation, and if I wasn't involved in these circumstances, I would probably give the same advice to a client."

"I see. It still pisses me off though. I just want this all to be fixed. I feel like a jackass for starting it, but it needs to just end with some sort of happy ending, you know?"

"I know. I want that to happen too. I want Matt to be as happy as he was on his wedding day, but it realistically isn't going to happen. The human heart takes time to heal."

"Wow, that is the cheesiest thing I have ever heard you say, but I guess you are right. I think they will get back together eventually though. They are inseparable."

"I'm not sure about that. Madi might really want it to be over, and you can't really stop her. They best thing would be for them to end amicably if they were to get a divorce. At least for Jordan's sake."

"Yeah, I guess if that happens it would be best if it ended that way. Hey Char?"


"I don't want to end up like them. Promise me we won't be like them."

"I don't know. We have only been together a couple of days. I can't predict our future for ten years down the road. Life is crazy like that. We may not even be together at that point."

"But we'll still be friends right?" Ben leaned over and brushed a lock of hair out of Charlie's face to make sure that they could look at each other properly.

"We will always be friends no matter what."

"Good, because I don't know what I would do without you. What we have isn't like what they have. We talk to each other, and depend on each other. I can't really see us apart, but I can see Madi and Matt splitting up and moving on. I just don't want that to end up being us."

Charlie leaned forward and lightly kissed his forehead, reassuring him that the future that was as unstable as nitro glycerin would be okay. She knew that she may not be right, but she wanted to believe the lie, just like Ben. Ben softly guided her chin down so that their lips were parallel to each other. He slid her lips apart with his tongue, and pulled her body closer to him while inserting his tongue further into her mouth. She used her tongue to massage his, and she couldn't help but be turned on by it. She wanted him, and decided to throw their vow to take it slow out the window. She swung her legs over so that she was straddling Ben, and once again Ben's hands slid beneath the shirt that she was wearing, that actually belonged to him.

"My room?" Charlie whispered to Ben while gasping for air.

"I thought you wanted to take it slow?"

"So did I, but I want you so much. Why not be with each other now?" Charlie smiled at Ben and started kissing him again, but he softly pushed her away.

"We can't do this now. We shouldn't force this to happen."

"We aren't forcing anything. We both want each other, and we want to be with each other for a long time. Why should we hold back when we know what we want?"

"I don't know. You said that you didn't want to rush anything. I was just listening to you. You said that you wanted me to realize a mistake before I made it. Well, I think this might be one."

"Why?" Charlie had pulled herself off of Ben, and was now at the edge of the couch hugging her legs.

"Because you are just doing this so that we won't be like Madi and Matt. You are trying to make me happy."

"I'm trying to make myself happy too. Being with you would be amazing, and I want it to happen, okay. It may have started they way you said, but I know that I want you. I want to be with you."

"Are you sure about that? I don't want us to mess up early on, and totally fuck up our entire relationship."

"Don't worry, we won't. I want to be with you. I'm really ready to settle down, and I don't see why we should wait. I love you know, and I will love you a week from now, a year from now, even twenty years from now. Let's be together."

"Okay. Your room?"


Ben woke up bundled in Charlie's soft sheets with his arms wrapped around her soft and supple body. They had decided to still take it slow last night by only performing oral sex on each other, but it was still further than they have ever gotten before. They had seen each other naked numerous times because they would always need something in the bathroom while the other person was in the shower, and with a clear shower curtain it was obvious that they would see each other naked. They had gotten used to it after a while, but seeing each other naked now was much different. You felt differently when you were seeing them in an intimate situation. They did enjoy each other, but decided to call it a night and went to sleep after about an hour.

"Morning sweetie," Ben greeted Charlie. Her eyes flickered open, and it took her a minute to figure out that it was Saturday morning.

"Hey. How are you this morning?"

"Good, happy to be in bed with you. You have no idea how long I have wanted this to happen."

"It is nice. I like this, cuddling with you. I think we should do it more often, okay?"

"Well, I'll have to schedule you in between my other girls, but I think I can fit you in. I may have to move a couple of girls around. Maybe I can double up on one of them. That could always be fun," Ben pointed out with a wolfish grin. Charlie couldn't help but laugh at how brazen he always was.

"You are crazy, but I like that about you. I should get going now."

"Why, it's Saturday. What can you possibly be doing at eight on a Saturday morning?"

"It's not what can I be doing, it's who will I be doing," Charlie joked. She couldn't help but to get that blow in.

"Nice. I guess we both have busy schedules. Seriously, what do you have to do?"

"I have to go have breakfast with Mary. We scheduled it a long time ago, and I can't just bail on her now."

"Fine, but when you get home I want you naked within the first thirty seconds after you walk through that door, okay?"

"It's a deal, now I have to go take a shower."

"Can I join you?" Ben's grin had spread across his face once again, but this time Charlie wasn't going to play along. She enjoyed her shower, and say it as her alone time.

"Sorry, but you can't. I don't like to shower with people."

"Okay, but that means that the naked time has been cut down to fifteen seconds."

"I can agree to that." Charlie sealed the deal with a kiss, and walked out of her room towards the bathroom.

Mary checked her watch for the second time; seeing that it said that it was 9:07. She hated it when people were late, especially when you were forced to sit alone at a restaurant. She was about to check her watch for a third time when she saw Charlie gliding through the door.

"Hey Mare, sorry I'm late. I got hung up."

"Doing what?" Mary asked after she and Charlie had hugged each other and sat down at the table.

"Well, I know this is something that you have been waiting for a while to happen, but Ben and I are together."

"It's about time. I thought that you two would be forty before you finally realized that you should be together. When did this happen? God, I can't believe you didn't tell me the minute it happened. What happened to make you two realize the obvious?"

"Well, I went on this date with a guy that I work with, and we had a good time, but we didn't really do anything. He left, and I went to go talk to Ben. Ben then started flipping out, saying that he has always loved me, and wanted to be with me, so he pinned me up against the wall and started kissing me."

"Nice, what did you do."

"Well, I let him kiss me, because her is an amazing kisser. We decided to take it kind of slow though, but that's not it."

"What else happened?"

"Oh, it's a long story with Matt, Madi, and Ben." Charlie told her the whole tale, ending her story with a less graphic version of her exploits the night before. "So that's what happened. Isn't it insane?"

"Yeah, so Ben is going to have a kid?"

"Yep, and it kind of freaks me out. I think I can live with it though. I think he will be a pretty good dad."

"So, where does Matt come into play in all of this?"

"What do you mean?"

"Come on Charlie, you know what I mean. Is he trying to get with you?"

Charlie laughed at this preposterous question. "No way. He has been trying to stay with Madi, or he has been thinking about her."

Mary scoffed at Charlie's answer. "Jesus Charlie, Matt is in love with you. Its no wonder Madi cheated on him and accused him of sleeping with you. He always wanted to be with you, but you rejected him, and he moved on because you weren't willing to try it again. He never thought that he and Madi would become really serious. He just kind of thought of her as a transition girlfriend, but she ended up being a lot more. She pushed him into a lot of things, but if her was single, he would have been with you in a second."

"I don't know about that. He seems really happy with her, and he has never tried anything with me."

"Yeah, because of Jordan. He would never do anything that might end up hurting Jordan. He probably doesn't even care about Madi. It's just his son that he is worried about."

"That can't be true. Why do you think all of this stuff anyway?"

"Matt tells it to me. We get together every now and then. He said that he always wanted you, but timing was never right. At first you didn't want him, and then Madi came into the picture. Whatever chance he had to be with you was completely blown."

"So, that was a long time ago. We have both moved on."

"Charlie, I don't think you understand this. He told me all of this last week. We had lunch together, and he said that he still loved you. This was before this whole Madi pregnancy thing though, so now he probably thinks that you two have a chance. Maybe you should give it a try. It might be worth a shot."

"No way. I am finally happy with where my life is. I have Ben, and we are really good together. I like being with him, and I would never blow it all on someone like Matt, who is in a really unstable place in his life right now. It's not a smart move."

"I know, but I just thought I should let you know what he thinks. You seem to be really serious about Ben, but I think you should know that your options are open."

"I think I'll just stick with what I have now, because I feel like I have been waiting for Ben forever. I think it's about time for us to be together."

"Your right. It's time for you to be with someone. Whether it is Ben or Matt is up to you."

"I know. How about we change topics now. How is life going with you and Shane? Anything new happening in your guys' life?"

"Well, I think I may be pregnant."

Charlie almost spit out her coffee that she had been taking a sip of. "Our you serious?"

"Yeah," Mary nodded her head enthusiastically with a smile spread ear to ear. "I took a test last night, and it came out positive, so I scheduled an appointment, and I can get in on Monday, which is a really long time to wait. I just wanted you to be the first to know."

"Wait, does that mean that Shane doesn't know?"

"Oh he knows, I just meant you are the first outside of the Shane and I. I wanted to tell you before I told mom or something."

"Oh man, mom is going to be so excited her first grandchild. What do you think the baby is? A girl or a boy?"

"Well, I want it to be a girl, but Shane thinks that it is going to be a boy."

"I'm so happy for you. I hope you really are pregnant, and it isn't just a false alarm."

"Me too. You better start getting serious with Ben if you want to be married by the time you turn thirty."

"What? That was never a goal of mine."

"So, it should be," Mary joked.

"Fine, I'll go home and have sex with Ben the second I get home to get started on the baby making process."

"I'll drink to that," Mary said as they raised their coffee cups to a toast.

Matt knocked on Ben's apartment door, not wanting to walk in on him on top of Charlie again. Ben answered, and when he saw that it was Matt a nervous look flashed over his face, but he quickly recovered.

"Hey man. Uh, Charlie isn't here right now. She had to go to some lunch thing with Mary, but I think she'll be back soon."

"Thanks Ben, but I kind of wanted to talk to you. Can I come in?"

"Yeah, of course." Ben ushered his brother into the living room with the nervous look resurfacing on his face.

"I just want to say that I don't really blame you. I'm pissed, but I would probably do the same thing if I were in your position. Madi's and my relationship has been pretty rocky over the past couple of months, and she would have cheated anyway. It pisses me off that you did it with her, but I need to get past it. You're my brother, and I don't want to fuck this whole thing up because you couldn't keep it in your pants one night."

"Thanks man. I, I don't even know how to tell you how much I regret this. Thank you so much for forgiving me. I'll make it up to you. I'll go buy us a case of beer, and we can drink, and just forget about everything for a while. Okay? Does that sound good?"

"Well, I don't really want to drink, because I'm going to pick up Jordan in a little while, so maybe we can do something else."

"Sure, where is Jordan anyway?"

"Oh, he is visiting with Madi. We figured that they can spend every Saturday with each other until five, and then I'll pick him up and take him home."

"Well, at least you guys are going through this pretty well. I don't know what I would do if I was in your position."

"Pretty soon you will be in my position, with a kid and everything. You'll be negotiating with Madi about who gets the kid when, who is going to pick them up from daycare. It's a rough world like that."

"I am so not ready to be a father. I don't know how I'm going to handle it."

"One day at a time Ben. Just take it one day at a time."

"How about I go pick up some Chinese for us. My cupboards are pretty bare, so it might be a good idea to go out to eat."

"Yeah, but the nearest Chinese place is at the other end of town."

"Which is why it will be such a treat."

"Okay man, you know what I like."

"Yep. I should be back in about a half an hour. Maybe a little longer if it's busy."

"Later Ben," Matt said as Ben walked out the door. Once Ben was gone Matt sat down on the couch and began flipping through the channels on the television. After about five minutes he had to go to the bathroom, so he went to go to the bathroom to take a leak. He was just starting to unzip his fly when he heard the front door open and close. He heard Charlie's voice through the bathroom door, but couldn't make out what she was saying. After he had finished his business and washed his hands he walked out of the bathroom to find a naked Charlie sitting on the edge of the couch.

"Oh God, I thought you were Ben." Charlie tried to quickly scramble off of the couch, but only succeeded in falling off of it.

"It's okay, I don't mind." Matt just laughed at how weird the situation was. He couldn't help but to let his gaze linger over her body, finally focusing on her breasts. It had been a long time since he had seen her naked, but she still looked amazing. He never really noticed how her boobs had gotten bigger, but he was definitely paying attention now.

"This is so embarrassing," Charlie mumbled as she grabbed the blanket hanging on the back of the couch and wrapped it around her. "Since I had to leave this morning, Ben told me that he wanted me to be naked fifteen seconds after I walked through the door. I saw that someone was in the bathroom, and I just kind of assumed that it was him." Charlie finished her speech with a sheepish look on her face to go along with the deep red blush.

"It's okay. Trust me, I did not mind seeing it. In fact, it is basically the highlight of my day."

"Well, it's good to know that I can do that for you," Charlie stated sarcastically. "God, you are such an ass sometimes."

"Yeah, but I don't really care. You look good, you know."

"Yeah, I know I look good. Ben told me that last night."

"Oh, so you two are having sex now."

"Um, not just yet. Almost."

"It's been a year, right? Since you've last had sex."

"How do you know that?"

"How do you think? Ben told me. You know, I heard somewhere that if you don't have sex for a year or longer, that you become a virgin again."

"A virgin? No way."

"Yeah, everything just kind of seals up again."

"Damn, I hope it's going to be better than when I first lost my virginity. That guy was really bad."

"Hey, that's not fair. I think you should be nicer to me."

"Why should I? You just walked in on me naked."

"Are you seriously saying that? You were out here on the couch, in the living room. It would be a different story if you were in your bedroom, but your aren't." Charlie and Matt started to chuckle at how awkward the situation was, and because Charlie was shaking with laughter, so her blanket slipped a little bit, revealing her left breast. Matt stopped laughing and began to stare once again.

"Jesus Matt, you really need to get some control," Charlie joked as she readjusted her blanket to cover herself. "I'm going to my room to go get dressed now."

"Can I join you? I can take your virginity a second time." Charlie just smiled and shook her head. She walked into her room and closed the door behind her, leaving Matt to think about how she looked naked. He had to admit that she looked amazing, but Charlie was like a statue in a museum. He could look, but he couldn't touch. He turned around when he heard the front door opening, and saw Ben walking in with a very large bag of delicious smelling Chinese food.

"Hey Matt, I got you some cashew chicken just like you like, and some wonton soup, and I got us a couple of egg rolls. I couldn't remember if you like them or not. Here, lets go eat on the couch." Ben walked over to the couch, and was about to set the food down on the coffee table in front of it when he saw Charlie's underwear lying on the table. They were pink and lacy, and definitely did not belong on the coffee table. Of course fate had to go against them, and Charlie walked out of her room in a robe.

"I hope you don't ever plan on seeing me naked again. I think this was a one time-." Charlie stopped talking as soon as she saw Ben standing before her with her underwear dangling from his fingers.

"What the hell is this?" Ben shouted. Charlie and Matt stood before him, knowing that what had happened was innocent, but trying to explain it to Ben would not be easy. They had violated his trust in the past, and Ben had never fully recovered from it.