It was the first day of summer which means school has just ended. Thank God for that.

It has been seven years since he has been gone. The first day of summer is the days I always start remembering. It makes my heart ach. We had just started to go out, but it ended faster then a blink of an eye. His name was Mark.
I knew him all my life. He was Jan and my best friend, but I was the one who loved him. He never knew, until 2 weeks before he was gone.

Spring was almost ending in two weeks when I told him how I felt. I thought he was going to be horrified thought he was going to leave and never talk to me again. What he did surprised me, He kissed me. It was my first kiss from then on we stayed together and we were happy.

He was a swimmer. One day he had a swim meet and he was about to go in the water when he fell. He didn't move he just laid there. He went to the hospital and I was there by his side the whole time. That day I found out that he had cancer. How could I fall in love with a boy I thought I knew, but I didn't know that he sick? I wanted to cry I didn't want him to leave me. I was in love with him. He was in the hospital until summer started he told me he loved me and that he was sorry he never told me. He said that he couldn't bear not being with me and that to tell Jan that he loved her to even if he never said it back and then he died. I never understood what he meant by tell her I love her too and I wasn't going to ask her all I knew was that when he died everything was going too changed.

Jan became a hard ass a wild girl after he died. I guess when someone dies people change in different ways. We did get closer, but not as close as I wanted. She was never home and when she was she told me all about what she has been doing and how great everything was. I envied her. She always had someone who loved her she was always with some one. She was never alone unlike me. After he died I never went out I focused on school and only school.

When I told Jan about what Mark said she started crying. I knew something was…sorry had been going on between them, but I didn't think much about it I was only 15.

"Summer is suppose to be the season where you're out having fun in the sun not staying in being depressed"

I turned and smiled at my sister; she was wearing a black tank top and a short skirt; she stood standing at the top of the stairs (remember Jamie's room is a basement)

"Cat caught your tongue" she teased. She knew that every year when summer starts I get sad, but does she care...I hope so.
"Jamie you really need to get over him. There's lots of guys in the world"
"I know it's just hard"
"Come one Jamie get real. If he was still alive you guys wouldn't be together"
"What how can you say that we would be together I loved him and he loved me"
"Jamie how dumb are you? He loved you but once he turned 17 he would have want more. He would have gotten bored and you weren't the only one he loved..."
"Can we stop talking about this it only makes me feel worst about everything"
"Yeah come on I think it's time you come out and hang out with me"
"Fine just let me get dress" I put on a pair of shorts and a pinkish tank top and some flip flops...

We started walking to the Diner. The Diner is a place where kids our age go out and hang out mostly the cool teens or whatever. I'd been there once or twice just to get a soda and that was it...

We walk in and Jan walks up to this table that seats four. I would have thought that she was going to sit with her friends, but she didn't...I stood there...

"Come on the chair won't bit...sit"

And I do, I sit down feeling weird like I shouldn't be here. I should have gone to his grave. I couldn't visit his parents since they moved away after he died said this place gave them too many memories. I think that's one of the reasons why I don't like going out...

I sat there staring at the table top I could feel people staring I was popular in school, but not outside. Everyone knew I never went out it was how I deal. At first they would ask me invite me to parties after school activities, but then it stopped because they finally realized I was never going to say yes.

I could feel someone by my side standing there I didn't dare look up...

"Hey Jan what's up why you sitting all the way over here. What are you to cool for us now?" I heard a guy's voice say, I knew he was joking I could hear it in the way he said it ...
"Ha Nah I'm just here hanging with my sis you want to sit with us"
"Yeah sure" I could feel him hovering over me; he was going to sit down next to me...
"Umm can you scoot over" he asks me and I do with out looking up...
"So Jan what's your sister name I haven't seen her before"
"That's because you don't go to our school. Why don't you ask her?"
"Well I would see her out of school. This isn't a big town Jan"
"She doesn't go out much"
"Oh why not"
"Ask her"

I hate the way people talk about you when your right next to them. Like they could ask you what ever they want, but instead they ask the other person like you're not there. Gosh it just gets me mad, but I don't let it show.

"Hey I'm David and you are" he sticks out his hand, I'm surprised that he had turn to me and actually talked. I turn to him and see his hand stretched out for me to shake. I slowly looked up to finally see him. He had dirty blond hair in a fohawk and brown eyes his complexion was light, like he had a glow to him a weird white glow.

"Hi I'm Jamie" I said and shook his hand. He grabs it lightly and let goes. He turns back to Jan and starts talking and I go back to looking at the table top...

Even though I was popular I was still shy around guys in class I can't even look at one with out blushing. That's how bad I am around them. I bet I was blushing when he shook my hand.

I sat there not really listening to what they were saying. I'm too focused on the little tiles on the table when the waitress comes by and asks us what we want ...

"I'll get a hot dog and a plate of fries" Jan said
"I'm, I'll get a hot dog" I said.

"You want something" Jan asked David
"Nah I don't want anything" David answered

they started talking when I got tried of counting the tiles. I looked up and started looking out the window…

I could see this guy getting out of a car; he had short black hair, from where I could see him it looked like he had green eyes. He was hot, very hot. I never have seen him before well it's not like I would he might not go to our school. He might go somewhere else. I stared at him until he sat down in an empty table with a smaller boy sitting in front of him. He turned and looked at me I could feel my self blushing so I turn and look at the table top...

"Who is that" I hear Jan say in a sexy tone...