Published: 3-20-06

A Silent Prayer

She opened her heavy eyes and sat up. The sheet around her bare shoulders gave no protection to the cold wind. She blinked and looked around. She was in the baseball field at her school, but why? Then the memory hit her. Her flight out of her house, her trek to the field and lying down in the knee-deep grass. She squeezed her eyes shut and a few tears dripped out. She wiped them away with chagrin.

I must be strong…

Her eyes traveled across the blinking lamp that lit a circle around her body. She smiled a soft and pretty smile that no one was there to admire. Her heart quickened as the sound of an approaching car drew near. She calmed when the noise died away in the night. The sounds of night were quiet and muffled, all but the sound of the rumbling thunder. A storm was on the horizon.

To do what I must…

She wiped her hand across her chin and felt the chill of cold blood touching her fingers. The pain that showed in her eyes was lit and smoldering in fear. She remembered the horror, the shame and the fear. The life she led, the life she lived. Her eyes glazed over and she sighed. Her life was far from this field. Her life was only a distant memory. She looked up into the sky and saw the rain come.

To let them know…

The first drop sent a tremor through her body. The second and third were like the tears of a child to her mind. She lost count of the drops as the rain washed away the pain in her eyes and body. She lifted her face to the clouds and felt the sheet pasted to her limbs. The sheet was disentangled and lay at her feet in moments. Her body craved the rain, the purity of the water, the cleansing she so desperately needed. She smiled in the ecstasy of it all. The drips running into the folds of her skin and the roots of her hair. She raised her hands and threw back her head.

That I am no prisoner…

The cold drew a misty breath from her. She smiled as the chilling wind ripped through her skin. The longing to lie in the mud and soak in the water overtook her and she fell to the ground. She shut her eyes and felt the thrill of life leave her. Her soul was tired, her life was old. She closed her eyes and sent a prayer heavenward. A silent prayer.

And I am free…

She wished that it would all end, that the ecstasy of the rain would life her to the sky, leaving her pain and sorrow to die. She felt the rapture of faith and love come to her. A lightheaded feeling entered her mind. Her senses dulled and her mind went blank. The cold chilled her, she felt the rain hit her body as if it were pellets, hard and round. She shut her eyes, her tears mingling with the rain.

Even if I must die to tell them.