She Yodeled Back
My true bravery acts best faceless.
With my face and your face inches
become miles—miles, inches. With your eyes
in my eyes I am smiling and silent.
You have no idea—you cannot fathom
the depth (not breadth) of my silence, how
when you disappear the spark of me grows.
In your absence I could move mountains.
But you don't want a mountain, just a mountain girl
who knows how to herd the goats gently
and not lose them. You want a clear-eyed Heidi
or a song-filled Maria to share the Alps with
as the fire burns low and the children sleep.
So tomorrow I will braid my hair and learn how to sing.
I will find the missing mountain goat, climb dirty and bleeding
over rocks sized like buildings until the last one is home.
I will look at the Alps and not wonder,
were you not here, could I move them.