"Bewildered"

I'm staring at the ground

Knowing sometimes it's so hard

To stand up.

To let everyone know you're there

When most of them don't care

And now I don't want to send

Any of the wrong calls

So I just blend

Right into the walls.

I'm staring at the ground

When what I really want to do is look up

And admire the stars.

Don't know if I'm ready to lift my head.

And hear what everybody says.

Don't know if I'm ready to smile just yet

'Cause when you put yourself out like that

People notice you and look at you.

They compliment and criticize.

Not sure what my head want to do

But, you know, my heart still want to rise.

I'm staring at the ground

Not sure whether to laugh or cry

Because I'm so bewildered.

I'm thinking about giving it a try.

But I'm scared of mistakes.

I want so to ride the wakes

Of time and chance but I might fall on my face.

So I'm staying awake, laying my head on my sleepless pillow.

Pondering life, hoping this isn't being shallow.

Wondering if I'll go far or if I'm doomed to a life of closed doors.

Maybe it's better to take a chance and risk washing up on the shores.

I'm so sick of staring at the ground.

And seeing all the dirt around.

So I'm going to be slowly lifting my head.

Yeah, that's what I said.

I'm going far.

I'm wishing now on my first star.