5I smile and I even laugh while my heart within me bleeds
I stand straight and proud and tall, but inside, I'm on my knees
I joke with those I love, but in my mind, I cry
I look so free and full of life while behind the smile, I die
People think I'm strong, but I've never felt so weak
They say I'm never at a loss, but I can't get what I seek
I seem to speak my mind, though my heart itself is dumb
You see a girl enjoying life when I really feel so numb
The retorts you take as wit are to hide the stabbing pain
You say my smile brings sunshine, but to me, it's always rain
I act like I'm straightforward as I hide myself away
I retract, but don't regret, the things I sometimes say
The reason I don't cry is that I have no tears left to shed
Physical wounds are nothing because of how my heart has bled
And, lifted far above it all, is my claim of honesty
My words are true, but my actions prove my own hypocrisy.