So this is love,
This unexpected,
Uninvited guest
Who snuck up so quietly
And then struck
In a rush of realization.
I was stroking your hair
Marveling at how dark
And soft
And cool it was, against my fingers
And suddenly became terrified
Of what would happen
If your hair wasn't mine
To touch
All there was in the world then
Was your hair,
And my hands,
And the smile in your eyes
As if you knew what I had discovered.
I knew in that moment
That you loved me too.
So this is love,
This terrifying,
Energized
Need to be near you.
This knowledge that I've made myself
Vulnerable,
After a lifetime of learning
How to protect myself.
This knowledge that I've given you the
Power
To hurt me more than anyone before,
And the knowledge that for the first time
I don't mind.
All I can care about now
Is when I can next lie beside you,
Curled
Into the side of you
With my head resting
Just below the roughness of your chin,
Both of us basking
In the most blissful silence
We have ever known.