I'm sick of crying,
Too tired of trying,
Yeah right now I'm smiling,
But on the inside I'm dying.

I do this everyday,
This fake smile,
Starts to ache around,
The corners of my face.

I wish it would be genuine,
I want to make you happy,
I can tell you don't like,
It when I frown.

It's his entirely fault,
It's not like you caused it,
But still couldn't you,
At least try to fix it?

I love when he calls me,
A smile erupts on my face,
But after we hang up,
The sobs eject from my throat.

I have gone in too deep,
My brother was right,
But it's not like he tried,
He didn't try to break me.

He thought he was helping,
Calling me everyday,
And for that moment,
It truly did help.

But in the long run,
I can see,
I was better off,
Without him.

Sure, it still would have hurt,
My heart would still be broken,
But it would have been quick,
And now it's slow and antagonizing.

Every day I question,
What could I have done,
To make it different,
The answer is plain.

I can easily see,
If I would have answered,
The phone the first time,
None of this would be.

I can't blame this all on him,
I can't its true,
But he only adds,
To this pain I have inside

I'm sick of crying,
Too tired of trying,
Yeah right now I'm smiling,
But on the inside I'm dying.