why is it that every little thing you do affects me so strongly?

it shouldn't

it's not like we're that close or anything

i mean, we're just friends, and that'll always be okay

so tell me why the tiniest word will totally change my day?

whether for good or bad

i trust you, you know that

i just never feel good enough

for anything

i'm used, secondhand

too many strings

whatever

i don't really know

i've never been good enough for anyone when they needed me

or good enough for them when i wanted to be

i'm just here, stuck in this loop of life

always going around and around

and never forward

always ending up in the same place i started from

it's endless

it's hopeless

it's my nightmare

and i can't seem to escape

tell me, how does it work?

how do i break free?

why, when i'm trying so damn hard, do i never even make a dent in my circle?

WHY CAN'T IT JUST STOP ALREADY?

i don't know how to go on anymore

i'm so lost

i'm so afraid