Oh river of blackness

I am drawn to you.

Hate. deceit

led me to your banks.

I rest by your side.

Your call tears at me.

Oh river of blackness

I wish to run away.

Death hangs in the air like smoke.

Oh river of hell, blackness.

Make me like you.

Cold, uncaring.

Untouched by life's whirlpools and waves.

The power to flow on.

I need some respite.

Pain, anger.

Come with me to your edge,

ready to push me in.

If I jump

will everything that hurts me

go away?

Or us this just one more lie?