4A New Light
The memories come flooding back
The memories of when you were here
The places we went, just you and me
I hope those memories never disappear
You said that in twenty years or so
We'd maybe meet each other again
That I'd be a grown up by then
And that we'd get through this pain
And now just ten years have passed
I'm going to see you once more
But it's not for the reason we wanted
And it won't be the same as before
As the years go on we're still in pain
This hasn't ended like you told me
But I don't hate you like I used to, Dad
I'm grown up now as you can see
I still hear your voice sometimes
And I turn to see if it's really you
I miss you even though you hurt me
But I know you don't miss me too
You hate me for being so much like you
But I was brought up just the same
I guess you don't really care for me
I'm just something that's there to blame
So if you want to blame me for all this
Then do so, just leave mum alone
You got out, you don't get the abuse
You can choose to put down the phone
I'm stuck here to cope with it all
But I'm not just some kid any more
I'm not putting up with your insults
History isn't going to repeat like before
A/N: I finally understand why my Dad acted like he did. And I wrote this as a result of that. I know there's not much chance he'll be reading this but if he ever does somehow come across it I want him to know that I'm sorry for hating him. And I'm sorry for everything I thought about him as well. It turns out I was blaming the wrong person in all of this. Sorry Dad.