On the Edge

I'm hear again,

Staring down at rock bottom,

Imagining what it would be like to hit the thrashing ocean,

To let it pull me down.

I would be lost in the black, freezing waves,

Thrown around like a rag doll.

But the relief!

Oh, the sweet relief!

What I would give to be able to sleep for eternity,

No more pain,

No more worry!

What I would give for God to take me now,

Be done with it!

God.

God who takes and gives so much,

God who punishes and rewards,

God who loves but never hates.

So why would He put me through so much misery?

God…

Will You not save me?

I am worth saving?

Won't You lead me in the right direction?

Do you love me enough to pull me back from this edge?

I stepped away and never looked back.