2I never planned this
I never planned to fall in love
To ache every time I was not near you
To only be happy when I was with you
It was not planned
I never wanted to fall; especially not with you
You, who doesn't love
And now, you're standing there
Right there
Confusion on your face
Disbelief in your eyes
And I'm standing here
Feeling so afraid
And yet, so ready
I'm holding a knife to my throat
I can't live without you
I can't live with you
I have no reason to live
I have no reason not to live
I don't want to be a parasite
Living off your love and only that
I don't want to be dependent on you
But I don't want to be independent either
You're yelling at me now
Telling me to put down the knife
That everything is going to be all right
That's a lie
You're yelling that I can't die
Why should I die now?
What is the reason?
What am I doing?
What am I thinking?
I'm screaming back at you
Why do you care anyway?
You don't love me
You never have
I've given you my every being
But you don't even care
And now you're shouting that you love me
That you always have
That you always will
That you can't live without me
You're lying again
I scream at you to prove it
I know you can't
Because you don't
Because you never have
Because you never will
You're yelling at me to tell you how
As the wind screams around you
As the rain is beating upon your face
And I'm refusing to answer you
Because there is no way
And so you shout from the rooftop
To the ever-growing crowd down below
Of people that matter
And people that don't
That you love me
Me
That you always have
That you always will
And you've proven yourself, against the impossible
That you really do love me
You've thrown away that hard earned bad boy image
You've showed the world that you, you can love
And now I'm free from this pain
Of not knowing
Of not living
And I can die
The tears are running down my face
And I whisper a silent goodbye
And as the cool blade slices across my throat
I whisper that I love you too
Death is coming swiftly now
He's riding in on his midnight horse
And he takes my soul away
Away from the world
Away from you
And I'll miss you, my tarnished knight
My only light that I had in this world
And as my last glimpses of you slip away
I know that it's okay
And I allow myself to fall away
Into Death's awaiting arms
Because everything is finally okay
A/N: Thanks for reading!
Your constantly-changing writer,
Riley Hunter