Nothing has been the same since you met her. I've known you practically forever, since we were both in diapers. We went to the same daycare, same preschool, same elementary school, and finally same high school. We were a package deal, everyone knew it. Cass and Kevin. Where one went the other was sure to follow. Always. But then you met her, and everything changed.

I know think of our relationship as having two parts. Before Jess and After Jess. And I'll tell you now, after being first in your life for so long, it really sucks being shoved to the background.

I don't mean to feel jealous, and I don't want to ruin things for you. But you've got to understand how I feel. For such a long time its just been you and me, I knew you inside out and backwards and you knew me just as well. Hell, we used to joke that we were best friends in another life, and it felt like we actually did. There was always that connection between us. And now that you're spending so much time with her, I don't feel it anymore. You've pushed me away so now I'm on the outside looking in at your happiness and it just feels wrong.

I don't know what to do anymore, Kevin. I'm torn between your happiness and my happiness. Selfless or selfish. Good guy and Bad guy. So I'm writing this, hoping you'll tell me what I should do.

Should I be happy for you because you're my friend? Or should I cry because that's all I'll ever be?