Is there a word to describe,

How I feel?

The pressure weighing in,

The laughter suffocating me,

And me? I sit.

As I watch the wind whipping emotions around,

And feel the ache as they scratch my numb cheeks,

My cold, concrete cheeks.

I used to be normal.

I didn't ask for this fate.

I was already full,

But you kept dishing more on my plate.

And you had done so much for me,

So I took it without complaint,

Because I swore to never let you down.

In the end I imploded.

And you know what?

I never failed you, but I failed myself.