289Nobody Wants You
By Free the Dancing Llamas
Chapter fourteen: I rather like the idea of that
Raphael's POV
My darling wife, my angel. She is as good as gone. I will never see her sweet smile. Feel her touch, her embraces, her shy kisses. I will never feel her presence, nor her body. I will never be able to tell her how much I love her.
Her.
I deserve to rot, to suffer. I deserve to be tortured for what I have done. I did not explain anything to her, I did not tell her what I should have. I just expected her to...to understand. Oh my darling angel.
I cannot help but remember the first time I met her. She was a mere slip of a thing. And she was beautiful. All I wanted then was an heir. Or rather I hoped for an heir. I hoped to make her fall in love with me so that it might make it easier in order procure one. And yet, I was the one who fell in love with her. Shall I tell you now; Adele was not my usual type of woman. And that is why I think I chose her. And it is one of the multitudes of reasons for why I love her.
What have I done?
I should have seen this coming. I should have known. For all my knowledge, for all my experience. It has now become nothing. Amounted to nothing. For that is what I am. Nothing. My cruel heart has become like a solid block of ice; it almost feels numb. And yet the pain is still there. As if the ice were burning a hole through my soulless body.
I never got to tell her that I loved her one last time. I never got to feel her beside me for one last time. Or hold her in my arms and kiss her. I let her go so easily, it pains me to think of it.
"I am so sorry." Elaine cried, "So sorry." She kept crying over and over again. The doctor had once again gone in, to see to Adele's comfort. It was, after all, the least we could do to make her comfortable while she faded away.
"I cannot believe it. She cannot be gone." I whispered, "There must be another way. I cannot live forever when she is not living, Elaine! I can-"
Elaine nearly shocked me, quickly snapping her head up, "Raphael," she said almost in an excited manner. "It is not the end."
"I know," I replied, almost annoyed that she was being so bizarre. Elaine had never been a particularly spiritual woman. "I will eventually die, and be with her in heaven. I do not think my soul will reach the-" Elaine cut me off, holding a finger to my mouth.
"No, you idiot." She almost growled, "You. You can change this." I felt almost taken aback.
"How?" I asked, wiping the red tears from my eyes.
"The servant-thing." She replied, frustrated, "The human-servant thing you vampires can do. My father did it with mother when she was ill. She did not age after that, and healed as quickly as father did. As long as one of them is alive, neither is dead."
I stared at Elaine, my mouth agape. I could not believe that I had not thought of it. I could make Adele my human servant. Give her all four of the vampire marks, and she would heal as quickly as I, possibly gain some of my powers and she would stop aging and be bonded to me in more ways than one, forever. Though the baby may not have survived. At that moment I did not care. All I could think for was my darling, blossoming, beautiful flower.
"You're-" She cut me off again, before I could thank her.
"No time, go give her the marks." She smiled, "I know, I am brilliant. It's a shame we were cousins. Now go."
Adele's POV
When I woke up, my head felt as if someone had taken a bar to it and pounded it repeatedly. It took my eyes ten minutes to adjust to the light which had been flooding into the room.
I tried in vain to remember what I was doing in my bedroom, and in such pain. My eyes slowly rested on Raphael, who lay handsomely dishevelled and sleeping in a chair next to my bed, his mouth partially open. I wondered what he was doing there.
Then it came back to me; Raphael's betrayal. I had run down the stairs.
And then I fell.
Panic suddenly overtook me, my eyes welling up into tears; I had probably lost the baby. It was impossible for it to have survived after a fall like that. In fact it was miraculous that I had survived at all.
Raphael probably hated me as well. I let the tears roll silently, as I pulled my sheets off, slowly edging off the bed, testing my feet on the ground to see if I had any strength. I felt a little dizzy as I stood up, but shrugged it off.
I walked slowly to the door, my muscles aching, but strangely enough not bruised. Turning the handle softly as I could. This was of no use for as soon as I had the door partially opened it was pushed shut, a resounding bang echoing around the room. I jumped at the sudden noise.
I felt a presence behind me and knew immediately who it was. I could feel his breath tickling the back of my neck and the hairs standing on their ends. My body betrayed me, relishing in his close proximity, and his musky smell.
The slamming door made me wince in pain, the echo still reverberating through my head. It was as if my senses had increased or become more aware. It was rather strange. I felt him snake his arms around my body, picking me up in his arms.
I could not stop the tears from continuously rolling down my probably blotchy, red face as he placed me softly on the bed, sitting with me.
He pulled my face to his, so that I could not help but look into his wondrous eyes, which had the ability to make me incoherent. I was surprised to find red tears trailing down his face. I wondered; firstly why they were red and then why he was so upset. Had I ruined his chances with Elaine? I felt the cold jealousy and sadness once again burn throughout my body. I felt sick as it gripped my sense.
He placed his lips softly upon mine with a surprising amount of gentleness. It felt as if a feather had been brushed up against my lips. Was this goodbye or did this mean he loved me? I could not help but release the sob which had been encased in my throat for too long. He lay me back, moving his head to rest on my stomach, where a small lump had begun to form. Was it possible that I was still pregnant?
"I am so sorry, ma Cherie," Raphael whispered into my stomach, "I almost lost you both." This confused me greatly.
"The baby is still alive?" I asked nervously.
"Yes."
"Where shall I go?" I asked more to myself than Raphael.
"What do you mean?" Raphael asked, "You plan to leave?"
"Raphael, I cannot cope. I realise you love Elaine, and you wish to be with her and I will not get in your way any longer." I swallowed, "I must go." I had finally said it. The thing I had been too afraid to even consider before. My body trembled, waves of a cold sweat consuming me.
"You will do no such thing." Raphael growled, "You shall stay here. With me, where no other man may touch you, or have your love. You are mine and I love you."
I looked away from his fierce gaze, trying to steady my trembling nerves, I had never in my life been so scared of him. He seemed to be possessed.
"Raphael, you cannot have the both of us." I cried, my throat tightening and squeezing as if protesting against the massive lump residing within it.
"I do not want the both of you," Raphael replied, leaning forward to kiss my neck, "I only want you."
"You were embracing!" I protested, "Do not tell me lies, I saw it! You love her." Trying not to lean into his warmth, as his lips caressed my jaw, his soft, yet calloused fingers trailing across my shoulders. I felt my senses slowly surrendering to him though.
"Adele, we were hugging. As one last time, she will die within a week." I tried not to feel ashamed as I felt the blood rush to my cheeks, burning them, "Further more, she is my cousin. A distant cousin, or rather my great grand niece. She is family." The shock of it nearly sent my whole body reeling; I almost died.
She was his niece? I felt like such a fool.
"She was your niece? I never knew you had siblings. Regardless; you two were almost engaged!" I protested in indignation, still feeling rather hurt.
"I would rather not remember that, it is a most awkward moment in my life. She is my brother's great, great, very great granddaughter. And it was most unsettling to find that out." Raphael mumbled sheepishly. "I had four brothers and a little sister once upon a time, Adele." Raphael then added softly.
All I could let out was a slight 'oh'. It was strange, indeed. If I had not been in such a strange mood I could have laughed. It was then that I felt a sort of longing to have been able to have met Raphael's family. To see if any of them were like him; but i knew it was impossible, they were all dead by now; dust in their graves. It was then I also suddenly realised that all the pain had completely gone from out of my body.
"Raphael," I asked, as he caressed my lips, with his own soft demanding ones.
"mm," he kissed my eyes, I shivered through his touch.
"It is so strange, but I am no longer in pain." Raphael suddenly ceased his ministrations upon my face.
"Ah. I forgot to tell you about that…"
"So you are now my human servant." Raphael sighed, as he kissed my finger tips softly. I leant back in the cushions as the prospect of this sunk it. I would live for as long as he did, never aging. I wondered what powers I might have gained from him, if he did have any.
"I do not mind so much. but Raphael, what of our children? What will they be like?" I asked, as I snuggled into his chest, grabbing his arms and pulling them around me like a second blanket. I loved his arms, I loved everything about him. His arms made me feel particularly safe, though.
"They will be half human and half vampire, I suppose. They will age a little slower than normal, but it will not be noticeable and perhaps they shall gain some of my abilities," Raphael replied, kissing the top of my head, "But I am not sure, it is not common for vampires and humans to have children."
"Abilities? What kind do you have? Can you fly?" I asked.
"Hardly, but I heal quickly, I have partial telepathy and telekinesis, and," Raphael said, raising his eyebrow suggestively, giving me his trademark smirk; "I can move very, very fast."
"How fast?" I giggled like a school girl, a red blush making its way across my face as I slowly grasped the connotations.
"Very, very fast," Raphael laughed, twirling one of my soft curls between his fingers and placing a kiss upon it, "I shall show you later if the doctor allows me to.
Then it hit me, he had telepathy. A girl in the boarding house had spoken of it; of street gypsies who could read minds. Raphael could read my mind.
"You! You can read my mind! You've been doing it." I would have jumped out of the bed, if Raphael had not been holding me around the waist.
"Only sometimes." Raphael chuckled, "Not all the time, besides I try not to do it too often; it drains me. Besides I only used it to read your opinions of me. Which were very inappropriate for a young lady, by the way. Anyway it is best, sometimes, not to know what is in the mind of men."
"oh." Was all i could reply as I felt a blush completely take over my face, "Well there isn't much to know anyway."
"Actually, there is one thing I want to know about." Raphael said seriously, "the boarding house."
A multitude of memories came flying into my head, some nightmares and some I had wished were nightmares.
"Oh." Was once again all I could muster.
"It's ok. You do not have to tell me now," Raphael sounded almost apologetic, "Perhaps when you are ready."
"No, no. It's ok, I shall tell you now." I sighed, tightening his arms around me, "When I was three, I realised nobody wanted me..."
And so began my story up until I met the handsome knight (Which was Raphael's favourite part, of course). And from there, I told him what I hoped might happen.
When I finished this story, the doctor barged in, proclaiming my existence as being a miracle. Told Raphael to be damned to buggery for his Vampire ways and took my temperature, followed by a rather sheepish looking Elaine.
"Oh, Raphael," I sighed, "I cannot believe I am pregnant." I leaned into his arms as we watched Elaine's carriage leave through the gates.
She had decided to leave, and spend the last week of her life with another relative. I felt almost embarrassed and ashamed about the way I had acted, apologising to Elaine before she had left. She had just simply laughed, as if it were the most normal thing in the world, and then apologised to me; told Raphael he was a lucky bastard, slapped him and proceeded to waltz out of the building, bags in the carriage and off she went. It was utterly bizarre. For a women of such sickness she certainly had a lot of strength.
"Nor can I." Raphael laughed, kissing the top of my head, "And now you will be mine forever, Adele. You shall live as long as I. You don't mind do you?"
"Of course not! To live forever with you as your human servant…and to think I shall never age." I giggled, as Raphael kissed my neck, "I rather like the idea of that."
"And I like the idea of going to bed at noon." Raphael smirked
"The doctor said not until after the pregnancy, it might hurt the baby."
"That is complete and utter nonsense," Raphael replied, tugging at one of my curls, as we headed inside to the foyer.
"Besides you shall think of me as horrid and gross, and believe me, my stomach shall grow." I replied earnestly, squirming as Raphael placed a wondering hand on my posterior, giving it a gentle squeeze.
"I shall be the decider of that." Raphael demanded, kissing me chastely and grabbing my hand, "Quickly, to the bedroom, we shall see."
"oh, no. No. Raphael. No. Absolutely not." I said, as he pulled me along up the stairs.
"You keep saying that, and yet you are doing nothing to stop me."
Well.
A/N: The END? Fear not readers, there shall be an epilogue!
Lol, it just dawned on me when Raphael says; "Quickly to the bedroom." He sounds like batman or something; "quickly to the bat-mobile" Ah. I crack myself laughing.
Anyway. THANKYOU EVERYONE WHO READ AND REVIEWED SO FAR!
It makes my day.
Anyway; I do apologise for the last chapter,that was very rushed and horrible. Even this chapter was pretty rushed. So I'll go back and fix it. I'll go through and fix the detail, these last two chapters were supposed to span out into at least four chapters, but I rushed to get it done..so i do apologise, I am so sorry. This story needs to be finished if it's the last thing I do on here. This was possibly the fastest update in the history of this story...
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EDIT #1: Ahh, so I took a look and made a few corrections. I'll come back and add more. Until then...
EDIT #2: Went through and fixed some of the grammar and tense. Will be back to develop a little more.