I'm just running in any direction trying to find where I am

_because all those connections I built over the years

Suddenly fell through
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Old habits die hard.

like picking up the phone and dialing a number

my fingers know better than I

only you understood it seemed

you used to listen to everything

troubling my mind
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I'm still trying to match

This new reality to the person that I…
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I speculate:

Self-interest is what changed;

i dont have the energy to appreciate

your newfound strength and assertiveness

vicariously
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But I'm proud, truly.

i anticipate the day

_you become strong enough to break free

_from running in circles around me.

11:18AM, Thursday, January 08, 2009