A/N: I am so, so, so, so, so, so, so SORRY! It's literally been forever I know! Honestly, not only was I having writers block but I had no computer to even type on if I wanted to.
Please read A/N at the bottom! So I don't delay your time any further (and sorry it's short)
I could hear her sigh on the outside of my door, the desperation in her voice made me realize something, she doesn't hate me, she pitied me. I not sure which was worse. I stood there frigid against the door, I felt my hand slowly twist the knob until I heard a click and then backed up.
"It's open," I mumbled.
I saw the door hesitantly open. Jasmine stepped awkwardly into the room shutting the door behind her and locking it before she lifted her head to look me in the eye. We had a good few feet between us and neither of us moved. We stood there silently, neither of us knowing how to start. Then I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, which I ignored and then turned my phone off.
"So you did have your phone?" Jasmines voice filled my ears, the sound was unexpected.
"Uh, yeah," was all I could muffle. I heard her let out a sigh.
"Aidan… I… I don't know what to say." I just look down, because honestly I didn't know what to say either.
"I'm sorry," was all I could think of.
"You don't have to be… sorry. I guess you can't really help it." Her words, so sweet stung because I knew she was just trying to be nice and it was clear she obviously didn't feel the same way.
"I can't but I'll try." Silence again. I looked up to see she was looking all around the room chewing on her bottom lip. "What?"
"Well, I mean I was just wondering, you don't have to tell me-"
"Well I mean, how long… have you felt like… well this?" as to emphasize her point she gestured to me.
"I guess, um, I realized it when you got here." I could feel myself blush, God I never blush.
"But when I think about it I guess I've always felt something since we were kids."
"Oh… sorry." She whispered. "Is that why you are always fighting with me?"
"Yeah, I guess." I shrugged. The tension was so obvious in the room I felt claustrophobic. "So what do we do, I mean what happens now?"
"Honestly Aidan I don't know, this has never happened to me before. I mean, I think maybe we can just pretend this never happened but that might be easier said then done."
"Look, I know I must make you really uncomfortable right now, I get it okay. I'll just not try to get in your way and work on dealing with… this." I started rubbing my temple feeling a headache coming on.
"Aidan I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable in your own house. Don't worry about me okay I've had time to process this and if your willing to work on your feelings and can just be my cousin then everything will be fine." I could hear a small ounce of doubt in her voice but ignored it. "We don't have ignore or avoid each other." She said sternly. I stood there and shook my head thinking I was dreaming. How is she so calm and mature about this?
"How are you not completely freaking out about this? Shouldn't you be running away? I'm disgusting." I spat.
"Hey!" jasmines voice rose, and she took a couple steps towards me, I looked at her ashamed. "I admit at first I was a little freaked, but then I thought about what you must be going through and I knew that I was the one who had it easy here." I looked down, this is so embarrassing. Here I just kissed my cousin and she's comforting me! I felt her hand lay on my arm and stared at it feeling the spot she was touching burn. "You are not disgusting okay? Like I said, you can't help it and you are still my cousin and I still love you… like a cousin okay?" I slowly nodded my head. "Let's just put this behind us, we have almost two weeks left so let's just take it a day at a time." I nodded again, lifting my head giving the best half smile I could muster.
"Yeah, okay." She smiled her beautiful, genuine smile and gave a slight rub of my arm before telling me she was going to go to her room if I needed anything else.
I entered my room feeling relieved and worried all at the same time. Then it hit me,
"He's liked me this whole time!" I mumbled. I fell face first onto the bed letting out a deep frustrated growl. Why? This is so random, why would he like me? He's the supermodel of the family. I'm the runt! What the hell? I rolled to my side and hugged pillow feeling exhausted for some reason. The kiss flashed back into my mind. I sat up and shook my head. Stop it Jaz, just don't think about it, suppress the image and the feeling. The feelings of the intense, passionate attraction he put into that kiss. I don't think I had ever felt so wanted in my life. That's a weird thought, I thought about all the kisses Anthony and I shared. I don't think he's ever kissed me like that. I don't even know what to compare it to it was so needed… for Aidan, right. I quickly grabbed my phone and called Anthony, I was in some desperate need of reality.
A/N: I haven't been getting any alerts (story or pm's) is anyone else experiencing this? If so or if you know what's going on or what might be the problem please leave the information in your review. And I have a new story if you guys haven't noticed called Bittersweet Innocence and this is another incest one btw. Thanks for reading! Again sorry for such a long update.