I Don't Know

4/27/04

I don't know how I got like this
or why I feel the need to scream.
I don't know when I became useless
or why I say things I don't mean.
The pain I feel every day
I hope someday will fade away.
The things I go through just to stay.
I'm tired of putting on this play.
Tears roll freely from my face,
as they do every night.
I sit here helpless
waiting for the light.
I was a silly little girl
that once thought she could,
but now I see
I could never be good.
Life dealt me a bad hand.
Maybe I should throw it away.
I could take a stand
and refuse to stay.
Though it's bad
I know I can't go.
I need to stay
to put on this show.
So though I might wish not to,
I will stay right here.
For the ones that need me.
There's no need to fear.
I was a silly little girl
that once thought she could,
but now I see that
I could never be good.
I don't know how I got like this
or why I feel the need to scream.
I don't know when I became useless
or why I say things I don't mean.