I don't know what to do

I don't know where I go

All I've ever depended on is

You

I can regret

I can cry

But I can't

Take It back

I can talk to unopened ears

Look into unseeing eyes

But I can't

Take It back

I don't know how I could

I don't know why I did

All I've ever really loved was

You

I can wish

I can pray

But I can't

Take It back

I can grab for unfeeling hands

Search for a motionless heart

But I can't

Take It back

I'm running out

Slowing down

I've hit that infamous brick wall

Between space and time

Remnants of others before me still vivid

On its unyielding surface

Your silence

My pleading

Your forgiveness

My inability to do the same

It all falls from the sky

In raindrops of bullets

Take one

In the eye

In the lips

In the ears

In the knees

In the heart

Fall to the cement

And bleed

Bleed Sorrow

Bleed Regret

Bleed

Love

I don't know where you are

I don't know where I hide

All I've ever breathed is

You

I can scream

I can whisper

But I can't

Take It back

I can stare into one-sided glass

I can yell at a turned back

But I can't

Take It back

I don't know why I try

I don't know how I stay afloat

All I've ever lived is

You

I can run

I can leap

But I can't

Take It back

I can hold onto stiffened shoulders

I can smash a merciless mirror

But I can't

Take It back

The steam of advice rushes into the sky

Disappearing from lack of weight

The love in

The heat of enfolding arms

The love in

Their wet hair pressed against my ear

Vanishes when towel dried and dressed

Thumbed messages forgotten

Moments after leaving their sender

The reality of life had left me for a while

The poison of one drink

Of one kiss

Of one lie

Called it home

Flooding back in ferociously

Tearing off skin

Ripping out breath

Crushing leather couch promises

Destroying theater seat memories

Football grass stains of the past

Faded

But still present

Piano key love notes

Guitar string confessions

Once gifts

Now lashes

Reminders of

Who

I Really Am.

I don't know how you look at me

I don't know how you walk past me

All I ever wanted was

You

I can fall

I can crash

But I can't

Take It back

I can play broken piano keys

I can strum tuneless guitar strings

But I can't

Take It back