I don't know what to do
I don't know where I go
All I've ever depended on is
You
I can regret
I can cry
But I can't
Take It back
I can talk to unopened ears
Look into unseeing eyes
But I can't
Take It back
I don't know how I could
I don't know why I did
All I've ever really loved was
You
I can wish
I can pray
But I can't
Take It back
I can grab for unfeeling hands
Search for a motionless heart
But I can't
Take It back
I'm running out
Slowing down
I've hit that infamous brick wall
Between space and time
Remnants of others before me still vivid
On its unyielding surface
Your silence
My pleading
Your forgiveness
My inability to do the same
It all falls from the sky
In raindrops of bullets
Take one
In the eye
In the lips
In the ears
In the knees
In the heart
Fall to the cement
And bleed
Bleed Sorrow
Bleed Regret
Bleed
Love
I don't know where you are
I don't know where I hide
All I've ever breathed is
You
I can scream
I can whisper
But I can't
Take It back
I can stare into one-sided glass
I can yell at a turned back
But I can't
Take It back
I don't know why I try
I don't know how I stay afloat
All I've ever lived is
You
I can run
I can leap
But I can't
Take It back
I can hold onto stiffened shoulders
I can smash a merciless mirror
But I can't
Take It back
The steam of advice rushes into the sky
Disappearing from lack of weight
The love in
The heat of enfolding arms
The love in
Their wet hair pressed against my ear
Vanishes when towel dried and dressed
Thumbed messages forgotten
Moments after leaving their sender
The reality of life had left me for a while
The poison of one drink
Of one kiss
Of one lie
Called it home
Flooding back in ferociously
Tearing off skin
Ripping out breath
Crushing leather couch promises
Destroying theater seat memories
Football grass stains of the past
Faded
But still present
Piano key love notes
Guitar string confessions
Once gifts
Now lashes
Reminders of
Who
I Really Am.
I don't know how you look at me
I don't know how you walk past me
All I ever wanted was
You
I can fall
I can crash
But I can't
Take It back
I can play broken piano keys
I can strum tuneless guitar strings
But I can't
Take It back