2Flashback. Four Years Ago
"Serenity, can I talk to you for a minute?" called Mr. S.
I packed my bag and waited at my desk for the last student to leave. I didn't mind hanging back.
"You got a B2 on your essay, and yes it is good but I think you can do better."
"Sir, I cant get out of the B2 bracket and you know that!"
"Hey what? I don't know that, I never said that. You have so much potential and you can do so much better and I know you can do it. You are so smart but you don't believe you can do it, you have yourself failing before you even sit the paper! It's all confidence with you" he said
"Well sir you know I have a problem with confidence, like in all areas…" I said quietly.
"I know and I would hope you would come to me with any troubles you were having because…" he took my hand in his. "We are close and I did only want us to be friends but I think that line is blurred now" he smiled that angelic smile I had loved for years.
I took a deep breath and tried to silence the wolf whistles in my head and the pounding of my heart against my chest bone.
"I know sir, I thought it was just me…"
He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine lightly.
"Sir" I giggled
He smiled and kissed me again.
My heart began to flutter in my chest and I was in a pure state of euphoria. Life suddenly felt worthwhile again. That dead feeling I had always felt in the pit of my being was gone, replaced with pure satisfaction and love.
But like all goods things, this unfortunately had to come to an end, but…surely not so abrupt and harsh right?
Graduation Day. Three Years Ago
I stood looking in the full length mirror at myself in my full school uniform. My shirt buttoned up all the way, even the top one. My tie so perfectly straight, my blazer clean and pressed., my skirt with every possible wrinkle ironed out. I hadn't looked this neat since the first day of school.
I laughed seeing the reflection of the little thirteen year old girl going into her first day of school. Then seeing her look so innocent then changing into the seventeen year old staring blatantly back at me…
My train of thought was interrupted by a faint knocking on my door.
"Come in" I called, seeing the reflection fade before me.
It was Gerry. He opened the door slowly, popping his head around the door, making sure I was dressed.
"Yea Gerry its fine, I'm ready."
He came in fully and stood looking at me.
"What?" I laughed.
"You look breathtaking"
"What, Gerry, I'm in my uniform!" I laughed.
"I know but…wow!"
He came over and pulled me into a hug, close to him. I loved his hugs, they made me feel so safe, secure and most of all loved. He was in his suit, of course for the graduation.
He kept me in the hug for longer than usual. I didn't mind, I loved being close to him.
"Baby, listen I need to talk to you"
"About what Gerr Bear?"
I could hear the other students coming out of their dressing rooms and he seemed to tense up.
"Not hear, I'll be here after the ceremony so come straight back here will you?"
"Yea of course. Gerr Bear I'll be here."
I suddenly had a bad feeling in my stomach but I pushed them down.
"Ok, bye Sailor" he let me go and walked out.
I turned back around to the mirror and started fixing my perfect tie. Then came another knock.
"Come on Serenity! We're going to be late!" yelled my friend.
I rushed out and went to our position behind the stage.
"Ok guys! This is the last time you'll be seen as students of out college so make us proud!" said our Year head.
"Ok, hear we go!" she said and we began walking out.