Sunday 29th March 2009. 9:41 PM

I've seen the word pillowbook written a few times but didn't really know what it meant, and then I read others on here. I thought it seemed interesting. Thought I would follow the trend.

I tend to ramble a lot, I'll try not to. I'll also try not to moan and moan, my life really isn't that terrible. I don't even know if anyone will read this, it seems funny to me why anyone would be interested in my thoughts. But I like the idea of writing my thoughts and feelings to a bunch of people I don't know. I have a lot of thoughts. Half the time I live in my head rather than in the real world, it's more interesting. I suppose that is pretty sad coming from an 18 year old.

My friend's boyfriend dumped her this weekend. She had been going out with him for four years. She is 25. Her boyfriend was her social life. She lives with her parents. Please please I do not want that to be me in seven years, it is my worst nightmare. Okay, that sounds like a pretty bitchy thing to say seeing as she is my friend. I'm honestly not a thoughtless bitch. I have been trying to comfort her for some of the day, she is pretty torn up, the thing is I'm not the best at comforting people. I think the things in my head but somehow can't say them. Maybe there's something wrong with me. Anyhow, when I'm 25 I do not want to be lonely and living with my parents, I want to be happy and having a good life. Now is the time to ensure that doesn't happy.

I think I have written enough for one day.