Chapter-11

Okay, okay you guys can kill me right now, if you want, I'm sooooooooo sorry for the delay didn't really mean to its my final year, and I had a series of exams, soo sorry once again, this is just half of what I was intending to post, but I have currently no clue as to how to proceed from here, any suggestions?

Stupid Mind!

I woke up the next morning, feeling strangely lighthearted, feeling as though there can still be hope, but it was something that I would have to work for. I decided to forgo my plans with DD, you know the Principal?, it just didn't feel right. I don't know how I can explain this to you, but right now I feel that if Aceton was meant to be with me then he would eventually come to me, forcing his feelings, rushing him into loving me is frankly not possible. I didn't want him to wake up one day and realise that I was never the right person for him, that would definitely hurt more. So I guess I should warn DD about my change of plans before she actually calls her nephew.

But that doesn't mean that I am going to stop my attempts at trying to get him. Definitely not, I am not going to stop trying unless I am sure that I have absolutely no chance with him. The other reason why I didn't want this substitute guy is because I was scared, yes I know it doesn't make sense. But to involve someone else in this plan which doesn't even have a concrete foundation is pointless and I am simply not a person who opens up to people I barely know, it would have made things awkward and really fake and clumsy, so I would need a lot of time practising to be completely at ease with this stranger and then I would need more time, enough to fool Aceton, and all that time would be wasted, wasted when it could have utilised to just show him that I am the person he is looking for.

So I am bit of a coward, and more obsessed with Ace than I actually thought I was but I just couldn't see how involving a third person into this could help me. I know it really works out in movies and most teenage novels, but seriously? They only ever lead to more mess, with love triangles and what not, with a broken heart, or with the main character actually ending up falling for the guy who was supposed to help her get the guy back. Come on we know that happens, we have enough novels as evidence to back it up. This is a cliché, which almost always occurs, but I didn't want that cliché, I want my cliché. Where I end up with Aceton. But that seems like a long way to go.

I looked down sadly at by 'Evil Plans' notebook. "We never did go far from that first step did we?" its as though he has place me in his blind spot and refuse to remove me from there.I sighed deeply and started getting ready for school. I dressed that day with more care, I wore a black vintage tunic with skinny cuffed jeans and wore my hardly ever used peep toe pumps. I left my hair loose and let it dry naturally.

There, I thought looking at the full length wall mirror, I didn't look so bad after all. Not that my dressing up would actually make any difference to the way he looks at me. I don't even think that he ever thought of me as a girl, I was always the friend's annoying sister. Typical, eh?

Can't blame him now can I? I am kinda annoying. Just a tiny bit though, not too much just a bit.

I shook my head trying to get rid of the thoughts, grabbed my bag from my bed and rushed downstairs.

"Hey, what's up!" I called out to Ace, sitting at the kitchen counter have his breakfast, as I reached the last few steps. Hoping that I forced the right amount of cheerfulness in my voice as I did so. And that I didn't sound like a creepy despo, who was willing to jump him any moment.

"Why do you look so gloomy?" I asked him as I walked towards him. I hope that the look on his face was one of gloom and not disgust, maybe he read my thoughts...yikes!

"I miss Macey, just thinking about returning from school and having to clean all this makes me wanna die!" He said frustratedly. OH! That's what its all about? Whew.

Macey, was their trusty old housekeeper who had taken a leave to look after her sister who unfortunately met with a serious road accident. I like her a lot, a lot more than mine at least who is so severe looking and obsessed with cleanliness that she nearly banished me from the house because I made a mess of the kitchen trying to bake once. But she is all soft on the inside, and I know that she loves me. She is not really that bad, she is just like a coconut...

"Rose! What's wrong with you, why are you smiling like that?"

"I like coconuts...Oops sorry just thinking about dearest Eudora." I ammended after seeing the weird look on his face.

"Right ….We should have asked her to come here instead of sending her off like that for a holiday, when our parents left." he sighed.

"Oh come on! She needed a holiday, she works so hard!" I protested.

"I know, I know, okay? Sorry." he raised his hands up in defense.

"I still don't know what the problem is, I mean why don't we just keep another house keeper, you know a temporary one, they are easily available and if you pay them good, they will agree readily." I suggested.

"Whoa, Christine! That's an amazing idea, why didn't I think of that, Mom must have forgotten about it in the rush of leaving."

"You know I thought about it earlier too, but I thought maybe you like cleaning and cooking and whatever that's why I never mentioned it." I shrugged.

"What? What makes you think that I like working like a maid?"

"That's what I was wondering, I found it weird but then that's so totally you." I grinned.

"Right." he rolled his eyes. "Lets go we're running late, Lancy had to go early today so its just us again, oh yeah grab your breakfast, we don't want an angry Jake on our hands today now do we?" He grinned in that adorable way of his that showed his dimples and just a hint of his pearly white teeth. It made my heart skip a beat. I was left starstruck.

And then I saw him watching me, not smiling now, and I said awkwardly, "I'm so sorry I didn't mean to stare, I don't no why I am so absent minded today, I was just thinking that so many others would give anything to be in my shoes..."

I went slowly red under his raised eyebrows and thinned mouth, and turned away quickly before he should speak. But when he did a few seconds later was to point out that we must get going, if we wanted to reach there on time. "The rain has just turned in to a steady drizzle, we can reach there far more earlier than I had anticipated, we'll get there in time" His voice was reassuringly bland, so that my hot cheeks cooled and I was able to make some sort of reply in my quiet voice.

And we continued to make small talk throughout the length of the Journey, touching only light neutral topics as we did so. I was itching to start a conversation regarding last night's topic, but I held my tongue between me teeth to prevent just that.

Just as we reached the school, before we got out he asked me in his grave and calm voice, "Do you really think that I should start dating again?"

Oh, how could I answer that! "Well-" I began a rather overly bright voice, "-you will have to start sometime. So might as well now." But I rather hope that it is me you choose. I added silently to myself.

I forced herself to look at him and smile a little, but he didn't smile in return. He said shortly, "Just as you like, Christina." Somehow I felt that I said the wrong thing, judging by his now ice blue eyes, he hid it well though. But what else could I have told him without giving anything away? I was at my wits end thinking about what possibly have I said wrong. He gave a crisp nod and got out of his car and came to open the door for me, he was very gentleman like, but he did this taking long strides as though he wished to get rid of me; and quickly. I felt like a piece of luggage handed from on person to the other, as he took me to my locker and asked me to hurry and go to the class as the bell would ring in a minute. And then he proceeded to his doing exactly what he suggested me to do, himself.

I messed it up again, it was all going so well but I messed it up, what am I to do? It was foolish of me to fall in love with him, but then again one can never choose whom to fall in love with. Why do I always have to start talking?! Stupid mind, wait till I get my hands on you! Dave, Alex, I miss you guys so much, I regret everything I said to you, come back. Please. With a heavy heart I attended all my class and if the others noted upon my mood, they showed no signs. Only one more class to go, then lunch time, God! I hate School.

It was then, when i entered my class, that i saw Ace sitting next to Aglaia, laughing at something she said, and her gigling like a hyena. Aww, what a cute pair they make *squeal* NOT. I saw red, she was sitting in my seat! first my seat then my boy, now my seat again! okay bitch you are going down. That thing that i said earlier about not involving another dude, yeah that's long forgotten, this is going to get real messy. I clenched my jaw amd marched into the class and took one of the many empty seats in the front, i didn't want to see them canoodling. This is so ON!