I wish I could show you how much you hurt me
That way at least you might have a chance to understand,
But that will never happen because you don't seem to care.
I wake up everyday and I paint that damn smile on my face.
I put it there so you won't see what you put me through.
So I might have a chance to get over you.
You can't see this means so much to me; it's more than everything.
I would do anything just to have it all back, but you don't understand that.
You never thought it meant this much to me; well news flash: it does.
I have days when I honestly convince myself that I'm over you.
I tell myself the multiple reasons why I should yet don't hate you,
I tell myself the multiple reasons why I shouldn't love you.
When I see your smile, it always puts me back in that place,
The place I feel as though I belong; yet at the same time, know I don't.
& It kills me to see that this is okay with you, but it's killing me.