I choked back a sob that threatened to shudder through my body and the waterfall of tears that wanted to escape my watering eyes. I'd begged him, begged him to be here for me. "My appointment's at 11:30 – please?" The memory flittered through my mind. And as I watched the clock tick 11:36 I felt broken. I couldn't do this alone. I felt my hands begin to tremble – a physical reaction to the crushing weight of emotions in my chest. I was stupid and scared. But at least I could be mature enough to admit it and do what I had to the anger suddenly burst through my consciousness but I couldn't hold on to it – the wave of loneliness and sadness was already too much.

"Tehya Carter" My head jerked up as the nurse called my name.

I turned to look at the clinic doors one last time – losing my last foolish bit of hope as the seconds ticked by without them opening. Tearing my eyes from the doors, I sat there trying to smother my overwhelming feelings with a calm and rationality that I didn't feel.

"Tehya Carter" I looked at the nurse again and slowly stood. As I took slow, measured steps towards her, my body felt like a dead weight – those seven steps felt like the most disorientated journey I'd ever had.

As I neared her, the young blonde nurse smiled at me. Trying to be reassuring I'm sure, but I felt numb. I felt sick as I followed her down a white pristine corridor, and my body still trembled slightly. But as I felt like time seemed to slow and gravity was pushing me down stronger than ever before, my mind began to fill with non-stop thoughts. I can't believe he's not here for me. I thought he was different. And now I have to face this alone. But my stomach rolled, I knew I didn't want to do this. But did I have a choice?

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A/N: Thank you for reading I hope you enjoy this story as it develops. I already have over 4 chapters written already and I'm working on it as often as I can. Please R&R.