I had been waiting,

Waiting to unleash this emptiness

to test the weight of emotion

to see if I would feel

If I could still feel,

Because I knew that it was missing for quite some time now.

.

It was sadness. It was joy,

the kind that makes you want to cry your own heart out

just to feel it,

or at the very least it feels like you're crying your heart out

just so you can run your finger across the surface of a reality that you didn't know existed

.

rain began at the close of day

and late into the night—

She walked away first,

and when I did too, I felt nothing

No sadness. No relief.

The emptiness consumed—

And I knew I was free.