I had been waiting,
Waiting to unleash this emptiness
to test the weight of emotion
to see if I would feel
If I could still feel,
Because I knew that it was missing for quite some time now.
.
It was sadness. It was joy,
the kind that makes you want to cry your own heart out
just to feel it,
or at the very least it feels like you're crying your heart out
just so you can run your finger across the surface of a reality that you didn't know existed
.
rain began at the close of day
and late into the night—
She walked away first,
and when I did too, I felt nothing
No sadness. No relief.
The emptiness consumed—
And I knew I was free.