Sometimes I wish I could go back to being a child, knowing all that I know now. I regret so many deeds that I have done, or haven't done, but there is nothing I can do now. I embarrass myself all the time. I feel so stupid and lame even when people are praising me for things that are simple for me.

There is only one feature I like about myself and is that of my imagination. I like thinking about how events can turn another way, or what it would be like in another world. Other than that I don't think there is anything else I like about me. I'm lazy, stupid, angry, sad, and I just hate myself no matter what I do to better myself. I try to keep a happy outlook of life when everyone else groans and whines about every small thing but I can't hate life; only myself.

I know when people hear or read about this they will think wrong of me. Selfish maybe, I'm just expressing myself, revealing my emotions so that they are not trapped inside my vessel of a body. I know my limits at least. I just wish for someone to see the real me, not the person I try to play to be.

-Emberlynn