A/N: This is sort of a response to a line in the poem "Parasite" by AbsolutelyAbsent (great poem, by the way) that says "Everyone says my family's strong/ for putting up with me/ perhaps they are, but there's no scars/ on them that I can see." I understand her point, but the families and friends of cutters suffer a lot, and they have their own problems. So without further rambling:
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She thinks she's so tormented
It's not just her who hurts
The cutting's not the issue
It's a symptom of the curse
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My parents flock around her
And leave me in the cold
Her bleeding arms are worth more
Their disinterest hundredfold
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I don't wear my scars for the world to see
I don't pick up a knife and slice
My hate is buried deep within
My bitterness, my secret vice
..
She'll be fine in a year or so
When she manages to quit
I can't stop resenting her
And her stupid urge to nick and slit
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I'm the daisy no-one cares about
She's the thorny, dying rose
So tortured and afflicted
I'm the only who knows
..
Since I felt how she feels
And I stifled what she screams
And I know that pain
Because I have dreamed her dreams
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I have no release
For the scars across my mind
It would finally break my parents
So I try not to whine
..
I am stronger than I was
Before I took on this pain
I am colder and I'm harder
And I'm practically insane
..
I hide it-so-well
And I get sympathetic smiles
But they're all for Megan
And I swallow down my bile
..
I was there that night
But I just never told
I watched Violet die the same
And this farce is getting old
..
I am just as scarred
And I carry hate as well
She thinks she is alone
But I saw the gate to hell
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I haven't shed a tear since then
Not even at the funeral
My sister's friend was dead
My eyes never even pulled
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She can't stop hurting her body
And I can't control my hate
I wonder who is hurting more
And what will be our fate?
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She is getting help
And I am on the outside
Her soul is all scratched up
And mine has simply died
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I was typing this while listening to "Girl Anachronism" so it took a couple tries…but there should be no typos.