This all began when he came back. I was with Alex hanging out. We were at a coffee shop, not to far from our apartment building where I lived with my boyfriend, but things kept going wrong.
Alex was trying to cheer me up from a recent fight with my boyfriend, Scott. I usually went to stay with him when this happened. Anyway, we were talking about what happened when I looked up to see him walking through the door. It was like time had stopped and his eyes locked onto mine.

Alex waved a hand in my face and I looked over at him confused.

"Sap, are you sure you're doing ok?" said Alex looking at me with concern.

"Yes, I'm fine Alexander" I replied looking back at the door to find him gone. I heard Alex sigh. He knows when i use his full name that I don't wanna be bothered. I began looking around the coffee shop searching for his face only to find him walking up to my table. I imediately turned around.

"Hello Sapphire, long time no see" he whispered into my ear. I shivered slightly and turned to face him.

"Hello Nick, what brings you here?" I managed to squeak out. Alex looked at me very strangely knowing that I'm never like this ever.

"Well we are here for a while and I decided I needed some coffee...so are you going to introduce your boyfriend?" said Nick.

"This is Alexander...he's my friend, I'm sure you remember him" I said and I seen Alex eyes go to slits and I knew he remembered him.

"Oh yes, I remember you" said Nick. Alex glared at him. You see when I went out with Nick all those years ago. I began to grow close to Alex, but that's when Alex got jealous. He claimed I liked Alex better than him but it wasn't the case. We broke up and he kept trying things on me.

"So Sapphire, can I still make you red?" he whispered into my ear once again sending shivers through my body. I felt my face heat up and knew I was red.

"Ah I see I can sweetie" he whispered then began walking away from me and Alex.

"Please, tell me you don't still have feelings for him" said Alex.

"I don't still have feelings for him ok?" I said looking him straight in the face. He gave me a yea right look and then closed his eyes to sign.

"Dearie I know you better than anyone but if you wanna lie than lie but know that somthing bad is going to happen if he's around all the time, now I want more coffee..do you want another frapicchino?" he asked. I just nodded my head and looked out the window.

I realized that it was getting late so I knew we couldn't stay much longer here. I have to go make up with Scott. Alex came back with out drinks. We began to walk back to the apartment building.

I silently sipped on my dirnk and stared mindlessly at the ground. We arrived at the building and I said bye to Alex then headed to my apartment to find Scott on the sofa staring straight ahead. His eyes turned to meet mine. They were red and softly looked upon me. Tears formed into my eyes. I whispered sorry and he did the same.

I went to sit next to him on the sofa and I leaned onto him. He just held onto me like he always did after a fight like he needed me to live. We soon fell asleep and didn't wake up till we heard Alex ringing the bell. I got up to feel him tugging me back down.

I whispered I have to get the door and he reluctantly let me go. I answered the door and Alex asked how things were and i said fine. We said bye and I went back to where Scott lay. I smiled and laid back down next to him and he immediately held onto me. I fell back asleep and we stayed like that the rest of the night. I awoke to Scott missing and smelling breakfast.

I walked into the kitchen to discover Alex and Scott talking. I spotted a strawberries and cream frapicchino and went for it. Then sat down at the table with Alex and Scott.

"Good morning" I said sipping my drink.

"Morning Sap, how'd ya sleep" asked Alex.

"I slept good but that sofa is lumpy" I said.

"Well I didn't wanna wake you by moving you to the bed" said Scott.

"It's ok Scott" I said then began getting up, "I have to go get ready for work, bye Alex"

I then walked out carring my drink thinking over yesterday's events. I sighed and went to shower and get ready. After that I left for my job at Barnes and Nobles, my most favorite stores and my workers all loved me so I never have many problems. I arrived at work around 6am so I could open up at 8am. My workers were all early which surprised me. Then sooon as they seen me they all came running over.

"Sapphire we missed you yesterday. Are you ok? They said you called in sick and sounded horrible" said my friend and fellow worker Lacet.

"Yes I'm fine just had something to deal with" I said then opened the door leaving the key in for my last worker to lock it back. We had a pretty normal day at work. Making inventory counts and amking sure we had everything and ordering more inventory. At the end of the day I walked over to the coffee shop at the back of the store and ordered my usual which of course would be strawberries and cream. I quietly sipped on it while I walked to my car.

Then I felt someone grab my hand. I turned around to see nick. He smiled at me and placed his hand on my cheek. I closed my ees and then he leaned down and kissed me. I dropped my drink and bag to put my arms around his neck. He began to push me against my car and kissed my neck. I then snapped out of it and pushed him back.

"I'm with Scott, this isn't right...but I want it so much" I said looking into his eyes. He began kissing me even more then ever and his hand ventured up my shirt. I stopped him and he gave me a sad look.

"Not here" I said then wrote down my cell number," call me ok" I then began to get in my car and I rolled my window down and he leaned in for a kiss. I kissed him back and then took off for home. When I entered my apartment I seen Alex sitting on my sofa.

"What are you doing here, Alex? I said then sat down next to him.

"Scott is out and told me to wait here for you" said Alex.

"Where is Scott?" I asked.

"No clue...just said make sure you stay home" he said.

"O...ok" I said then laid down on the sofa with my head on a pillow leaning on Alex.

"Um...why are you leaning on me?" he asked and I looked at him with puppy dog eyes. He just rolled his eyes at me and let me lay. I began to doze off when mky cell phone rang. I ran to answer it and the voice was Nicks.

"Hey beautiful" he said.

"Hey What's up?" I asked.

"When can we meet Sap?" he asked.

"Tomorrow night call me back later and I'll give you more information" I said. I walked back over to Alex and he raised an eyebrow.

"What?" I said. He shook his head then made me lay back down and told me to sleep cause he knew I was tired. As soon as I hit the pillow I was out like a light. A few hours later I felt myself being moved and held by someone warm and very tightly. I cuddled closer to them and I heard him laugh. I felt the vibration from his chest going up and down. I openned my eyes and seen Scott looking down at me.

"Did I wake you up baby?" he asked. I nodded my head and looked up at him.

"I'm sorry baby" he said and kissed my forehead. I smiled at him and then cuddled up to him more.

i woke up the next morning feeling very warm and I rolled over to face Scott. He went to kiss me and I met his lips. We started to make out and hands were roaming everywhere. We managed to stop ourselves before it went any further.

"We need to wait till you're ready baby" said Scott.

"I know...I love you" I said.

"I love you more" said Scott then he nuzzled my neck. I giggled a bit and tried to get out of bed but he grabbed me and held onto me.

"Scott I gotta go get ready for work" I said.

"Call in sick...please" he said and looked at me with puppy dog eyes.

"I'll see if I have any days" I said.

"I know you do the day of our fight was the first time you've taken off in almost 2 years" He said and I knew he was right.

"Fine you win...but you are calling" I said.

"Damn you drive a hard bargin" he said and nuzzled my neck. I laughed and cuddled closer to grabbed the phone from the charger and dialed my work number.

After he called my work and put Lacet in charge he laid back down next to me. We laid there for what seemed like forever then I got up to get dressed but Scott kept trying to stop me.

"Scott I have to get dressed...we can't lay in bed all day" I said.

"Can we? please baby...I wanna hold you all day long...my arms feel empty without you in them" he said.

"Ok fine...when you put it like that I have to accept." I said and we laid back down all cuddled together.

"Can we watch a movie?" I asked.

"Sure which one?" he asked.

"Save the Last Dance" I said giving puppy dog eyes.

"Not again" he said but reluctantly put the dvd onto the player. We cuddled together on the bed and began to watch the movie. I made it to the part where she was first starting to learn the dance and I fell asleep in his arms. I didn't wake up till the movie ended and only cause my cell ringing and about to vibrate off the table. I ran to answer it waking Scott up in the process.

"Hello" I said.

"Hey it's nick...what time can we meet tonight?" he asked.

"How about 9?" I said, "At the Legacy Hotel"

"Sure see ya then angel" he said then hung up. I was lucky that Scott had rolled over in bed and went back to sleep. I went over and laid my head on his chest and felt his arms wrap around me.

He sighed contently and kissed my head. I giggled and looked up at Scott.

"I love you baby" he said.

"I love you too sweetie" I said.

He leaned down to kiss me and I gladly met his lips.

"I have to go to the Legacy Hotel tonight" I said and looked up at him with puppy dog eyes.

"Why?" he asked.

"Because I have to cover Mimi's shift...it's the bad thing about being friends with someone who owns a resturant" I said.

"grrr..I want you so bad Sapphire...I need you so much" he told me and grabbed me and kissed me roughly. I couldn't help but give into him. We began to make out intenser than we ever hae. I felt him tug my shirt up and I felt fear creep up. He stopped kissing me and looked into my eyes.

"Do you want this?" he asked.

"I love you Scott...I'm ready" I said. We kissed again and then it began and after I fell asleep in his arms. We stayed like that for the rest of the day till about 6pm when I had to go take a shower and get ready to see Nick. I felt kind of bad for lying but I have to. I stepped into the room from the bathroom and felt arms wrap around me.

"Do you really have to go?" he asked.

"Yes I do" I said while walking over to get my purse," I'll be back around 12...I promise."

"Ok baby...I love you" he said and kissed me and I walked off to go to the hotel. I arrived at 8:30. I walked into the resturant my friend owned which was called the Jewel. I told her hey and we talked for a while then I noticed it was 8:55 and I told her I had to go so I went back into the lobby and seen Nick standing there waiting for me. I walked up to him and he hugged me tightly.

"Hey" he said.

"Hey" I said and we both laughed. We both went got a room,and ordered room service. We got into the room and began kissing. Nick started to bite my neck. It felt like it used to be when me and him were together. We fell onto the bed.

"You want me don't you?" said Nick.

"Yes, god I want you" I said and looked into his eyes. He kissed me hungrily and we began what me and Scott did earlier. I felt guilt creep up a while later while I lay next to Nick.

I got up to shower and got dressed.

"You're leaving?" he asked.

"Yes I have to get back to Scott" I said. He walked up to me and kissed my forehead.

"Bye baby...I love you" he said and hudded me. I hugged him back and looked at the clock. It read 11:30. I began to walk downstairs and to the parking lot. I arrived at my car and felt tears falling. i got into the car and stayed there crying. My cell phone rang and I noticed it was 12:00 o'clock. I looked at the caller id to see it was Scott. I answered.

"Hi...Scott" I said trying to stop sobbing.

"Baby, why are you crying?" he asked worried.

"I...I...I..cheated" I said and began sobbing non-stop.

"Sapphire shhhh...baby baby calm down" he said and I was shocked.

"Scott, I cheated. Why are you being so nice?!" I said slowly sobbing.

"Because you were willing to tell me and as I'm listening to you I hear you are very sorry" he said," now try to get home"

"Ok Scott" I said trying to stop hung up and I began to try to start my car and I began to drive home.

When I got home Scott met me at my car and hugged me.

"Scott, I'm such a horrible person...I deserve to die" I said and ran up to our apartment. I locked myself into our room and I reached under my bed. I pulled out a knife.

"Sapphire,baby...please come out...Sapphire please" he yelled worried. I just ignored his plea and began to drag the knife across my wrist. I watched the blood flow out. I laid on the floor growing weaker. Scott managed to pick the lock and ran into the room.

"Baby...Sapphire...NO!" he said and began to wrap clothes around my wrists to try to stop the bleeding.

"Please live...Please don't die" he whispered holding onto my body. He grabbed the phone and dialed 911. He told them the situation and they said someone was being sent out. He held onto me and I felt myself getting weaker.

"Baby I love you" he said.

"I love you too" I whispered. I heard many voices then felt my body being lifted and put on a strecher. I then passed out.

I woke up hours later to find my wrists bandaged. Scott was sitting next to my bed holding my hand. He was sleeping and I moved my hand a bit. His head shot up and I could see red rimmed eyes.

"Baby, please don't ever try to leave me again." he said and leaned over to kiss me. He leaned over to kiss me. He leaned back and smiled weakly.

"I'm so sorry Scott" I said weakly.

"it's ok" he said and kissed my forehead.

"You mean more to me than my life or anything I could ever want" he said.

"Scott, I don't deserve you" I said tears falling down my face. I turned over and silently cried.

He rubbed my back but his touch made me feel so bad. I got to go home later that day. I walked into our apartment like a zombie. I sat on the sofa and curled into a ball.

"Do you need anything?" asked Scott. I looked up at him with hollow eyes.

"Sapphire please talk to me" he said as I stared at him with hollow eyes and tears began to fall down my face. He went to me and held me until I stopped crying. I fell asleep in his arms and he fell asleep too.

I woke up and went into the bathroom to see my puffy red eyes, my bandaged wrists, and my pale skin. I looked horrible.

"god I look so horrible right now...I guess I look as horrible as I feel" I said as I began to wash my face then went to take a shower. When I got out Scott was sitting on our bed staring at the wall.

"I don't want it to be like this," he began," I don't want you sad, I want you happy so I want to ask you something to prove I love you no matter what"

I watched as he got down on one knee and presented me with a beautiful ring. It was silver with a blue sapphire in it with diamonds surrounding it.

"Will you marry me?" he asked with hope in his eyes. My mind was swirling out of control as thoughts clouded my mind. I began to hope and pray I could find my voice to say my answer.

"y...yes" I heard myself say then ran and hugged him. He held onto me so tightly and I felt such happiness.

"We are going to be happy Sapphire" he said to me.

"We are..I know it" I said all feelings of my betrayal lingering. Then my mind reminded me of something. The day I slept with Scott we didn't use a condom but I used one with Nick.

"Oh no" I said out loud.

Scott looked at me with a raised eyebrow.

"What's wrong?" he said.

"The day we slept together, we didn't use a condom...but I used one with Nick and my period was supposed to start yesterday" I said.

"Maybe your cycle is changing" he said

"It already did last month" I said getting a little scared.

"I'll go out and buy a test ok?" he said releasing me from his grip.

I watched as he left and waited for him to return. He returned and i did the test alone in the bathroom. When I seen the results fear over came me. I walked and handed the test over to Scott and he seen the results and hugged me tightly.

"We'll get married and have a small ceremony...then have the baby" he said smiling.

"Ok..I want this baby so much...I just didn't know if...you wanted it." I said.

"Of course baby...I love you" he said.

"I love you too" I said.

Months later we are happily married and have a baby boy. His name is Brad Criss Vander. I love my family I have begun to start. My life is so happy. After that night with Nick, I didn't hear from him again. I heard rumors he got caught up in a drug ring. Alex is still living down the hall. He is the godfather of my child only because I persuaded Scott to let me pick, but he doesn't mind as long as I'm happy. I love him with all my heart and he's the same. We may argue but we are happy here together for the rest of our lives.