I fear that which I cannot hold,
I shy from light and don't feel the cold,
I betray my mind to those superior,
Mind is streaming events anterior,
I feel the passionate hunger burning,
Its claws grip me in hopeless yearning,
I'm craving my rose-coloured self-torment.
Avenues created in a confused fashion,
Hiding in dark my skin is ashen,
I gasp for air to liven my senses,
Put on the mask, raise my defences,
To mar my skin is to cleanse my soul,
I deserve to hurt, I need more control,
Helping no more as I bear shameful cowardice.
Naught but a ribboned soul is remaining,
Crouched in a shell constantly feigning,
Hot salinity brandishes cold skin,
Reminding me of this state I'm trapped in,
Pathetic and worthless my efforts are,
Directionless and dumb, I live in the scars,
If I were an angel I'd have broken wings.