Suicide on the Inside

I'm tearing myself apart,

From the inside out.

But only I can see this,

I must stay strong.

For them,

For me.

I cant let them see,

The mess you have put me in.

I can't let them see,

What has become,

Of their friend,

Their child,

Their loved one.

I ask myself questions.

I give myself half answers.

But only because,

I only know the half.

Why is it,

That people think,

In order to protect the people they love,

They must first sacrifice themselves?