Crazy lyrics for the character killing suicidalist. She calls herself Suki, because she knows she sucks. Will she ever get over her lack of self confidence? Or will she learn to let her heart beat the way it wants to beat? Just as much as she wants, it also wants to be wanted!

She's confused and this utter silence makes her think more about star crossed lovers. Will she ever be one of them? She constantly racks her brain, why so in love if I haven't met my love yet? Why so obsessed, if I haven't fallen for one yet? Did this story get slaughtered before it passed through my ears? Boy meets girl, they fall in love, happily ever after, the end. Did I miss the part where girls finds she's in love with a hoax, and leaves him? Or did I forget the part where girl gets beaten daily, but won't leave for fear of what could be? And of course I must have missed the part where boy meets girl, girl gives everything up, only to later find out that she fell for a lie. But no, everyone says that the story is right. They say that I didn't miss anything...but of course I didn't. After all this is the phony american dream, to love without hate, or betrayal, or any trouble. From some other place in time, second chances never came for twice in a billion players. So just let yourself crumble. What's the use of all your ballistic screams and hysterical thoughts? No one answered your suicidal escapades with, "Oh darling, no! Don't do it, we love you, Don't do it, we want you, we love you!" Instead they answered with, "Please and thank you for the blood shed ma' am. We like it, we love it, we want more of it!" So let's chant "Jump! Jump! Jump!" to startle your old mood back in. Will you jump? You know you want to, do what's best and let this depression consume you. Darling don't you love it?


I wrote this poem a couple years ago and decided to revive it since it was a favorite first.

At the time that I wrote this words were just coming out of me...a lot like puke I guess? They were errupting and I couldn't stop them, not that I wanted to.

If anyone has an amazinf interpretation then I'd love to hear it because I sure never had one!

-Thanks.