735A/N: Toxic in the best possible way, of course! Welcome to The End my dear readers!
I ripped the keys out of the ignition and hopped out of the car in the blink of an eye – gathering Gavin in forbearing arms on the sidewalk. Tears fell onto my shirt as I held him tight – feeling guilty; I hadn't meant to make him cry whether they were good tears or not. But I understood completely - if he was feeling even an ounce of the emotion rocketing through me, then it was intense for him too.
We walked silently into the house. I locked the door and thanked my lucky stars Auden was asleep before leading Gavin down a set of stairs to the basement where I was currently residing.
Gavin fought to control his tears as he sat on the edge of my bed – green eyes brighter than ever as they found mine. "I'm sorry Brecken," he said finally and I could feel my heart fucking break in two.
"Stop it – don't be sorry," I said firmly, kneeling in front of him so I could adore him properly. Although I was fucking out-of-control horny from his little show in the car, I focused on Gavin entirely. "That's my job."
"B-but if I had just told you about… you wouldn't have got so mad at Nick before a-and –"
"I'm the fuck-up, okay?" I took Gavin's hands in mine and pulled him closer so he could listen properly, but he still looked doubtful at my words – still inexpressibly guilty for something. "Every minute you're in front of me I think, good fucking God, why doesn't he hate me?"
Gavin choked out a half-sob, half-laugh at these words as if the idea was preposterous. "I can't hate you," he admitted. "Something is wrong with me… I love you too much." I buried my face in his knees, trying to hold back the urge to scream for joy at these words. "I'm sorry about Cole. I'm sorry you were alone and I had him –"
"I like Cole," I admitted. "I'm glad it was him and not some other asshole like me." Gavin laughed again. Looking up at him, he was so fucking hot it wasn't even funny. The black hair was so magnificent I almost got lost in it as Gavin sniffed quietly – regaining himself. "I am so sorry I hurt you." My thumb absently rubbed his tear-stained cheek – the one that I had punched without any remorse. "I'm sorry I was so crazy – I'm sorry I beat up Nick – I'm sorry about the whole blow job thing back in school."
I was sorry I needed him so much… not able to hold back anymore, I held him close, falling back on the bed with him.
"I – I'm not that innocent in this," Gavin muttered guiltily as he pressed himself against me. "I drove you crazy on purpose… I listened to Collin's advice… I never told you about what happened…"
"It doesn't matter," I managed, blood boiling at the mention of Collin. "Love made us both crazy, but we're here now." Embracing him - smelling the sweat and cum on his skin - he was finally mine again.
"It's been so long I'm going to lose it," he assured, pressing his skinny body tight against mine and making me so hot – so out of control - as I slid his shirt off… pale, unmarked skin setting me on fire. He gave a throaty gasp as I pulled at it roughly – crushing him against me as I kissed him.
Gavin was like an aphrodisiac.
Nothing in the world compared to how his tongue felt coiling around mine, acting like it could never be enough. I could feel every bit of him; senses heightening and consuming me. It was like swallowing liquid fire; lava slid down my throat - pooled in my stomach - dropped further south with every hot panty breath Gavin took against me as I kissed him. He didn't even bother to deal with my shirt; frantic hands going straight for my jeans and I had to pull off the tee myself – laughing at the autograph underneath.
Gavin didn't find it nearly as funny as he stared down at my released cock – totally, achingly hard and dripping pre-cum straight for the last thirty minutes - even before finger-fucking him.
All in all, I was a wreck.
His green eyes went dark and he looked at me beneath black bangs, biting his lip. "Can I suck it?"
Okay, that was pretty hot, but I wanted his ass so bad the animalistic desire was just barely being contained.
"No way," I argued.
Not listening, he pushed me on my back and spread my legs, provoking the beast anyway. "You won't last like this," he said seriously, as if it was obvious. Then, as he thumbed my cock expertly, I realized he was right - I was going to cum any fucking second.
"You were teasing me," I managed – as if needing to explain myself. On top of that fact, it had been such a long time… even his slightest touch was making me tense with pleasure.
Gavin looked like he didn't care either way; he'd always liked sucking dick so his eyes lit like this was a treat for him. He kissed the tip of my cock sweetly, delicious lips spreading over the sensitive head before taking my length into that wet, earnest mouth and making me moan.
"Ugnn – shit Gavin."
His damn hot tongue flicked the vein under my cock as he took me to the back of his throat– green eyes looking up at me. I had to clench my teeth, trying my best to last as I slid in and out of his lips. Gavin gave a soft "mmm" – voice vibrating along my length as I thrust in.
I willed myself to hold on - to enjoy this as long as possible - but it was almost unbearable at the sight of his full mouth; lips stretched obscenely to the hilt of my cock.
He was a dick-sucking angel. I'd known that since our very first date, but it didn't make it any less of a shock at the reminder. This time with his black hair and hungry green eyes – yea, there was no way I could hold back. Knowing I was on the brink of orgasm, he began to suck the cum right out of me; giving a satisfied noise as I broke with abrupt need; balls tightening and shooting into Gavin's throat. Intense, urgent pleasure took the words right out of me as I released – unable to help my hips shoving forwards to keep my cock in Gavin's mouth as long as possible - he bobbed expertly, milking every drop.
It was so fucking mind-blowing I couldn't believe it; I couldn't believe I'd thrown Gavin away without a look back; I couldn't believe how stupid I'd been.
He released me and climbed atop my chest; knees on either side and still dressed in his tight skinny jeans. I sat up to meet his pelvis – hands groping his ass impatiently - nose to his navel as I tongued just above the waistline of his pants. His stomach tasted like cum and I enjoyed it thoroughly, licking the salty skin and sucking beautiful purple welts that contrasted attractively against his flawless complexion.
Gavin looked down from above, legs shaking as I groped his ass mercilessly – hand in my hair, holding on for balance so he didn't just topple over. "Brecken - you're so hot – nnng -"
One ass fondling hand moved to the front, palming Gavin's hard-on through his impossibly tight jeans; fixated on his lewd body.
Feelings I'd shut in boxes – feelings I tried to ignore for so long - were coursing through me freely now. A dangerous combination of endorphins, adrenaline, passion, longing – love. I trailed my tongue south, sucking his bulge through the black denim and breathing hotly against him as he fisted my hair and whined; hips pressing his crotch hard against my mouth.
Dampening his jeans like this was getting me going again; I began thinking of ways to tease him until he was dripping and begging for it.
Oh fuck.
I grabbed Gavin's skinny hip and flipped him easily so that his flushed face was staring up at me from the mattress.
"Strip," I commanded, and Gavin wasted no time – hands going straight to work and unbuttoning his jeans; shaky legs barely cooperating as he kicked them off with his underwear.
It was my turn to admire the view from above – it made me want to do terrible, indecent things. This exquisite, skinny emo was seriously the hottest thing I'd ever seen. My eyes raked along his entire body hungrily, stopping to admire the bites along his lower stomach.
Gavin's hands reached out for me and I indulged – letting his fingers dig into my back and pull me against him - mouth meeting his; tongues twisting and tasting cum yet again. God, he was such a slut - I wanted him for the rest of my life.
He broke away, not able to stand it any longer as I rocked my dick along his skinny body; teasing him like I loved to do. "Aah - aahnn –"
I stopped - thinking it might not actually be that surprising if he came just from this. Instead, I ravished his neck like a monster, leaving vicious marks as he squirmed excitedly, trying to dig his hands in and pull me closer with force; nails spearing my flesh without any regard.
"So you left this for me, huh?" I asked, breathing just below Gavin's ear and reaching down to grab him by his ass that he was lifting so greedily off the mattress to meet me. "Been a long time, right? How badly do you want it, Gavin?"
"I'm dying for it!" he replied immediately.
Holy fucking hell…
"Cole was missing out you know – your ass is the fucking best." I tested how wet he was with a swipe of my finger, glad that the lube was still slick. Gavin twisted his position – now on all fours; ass up and waiting – and at the idea of fucking him this way, all of my training, self-control and restraint flew out the window. Suddenly the beast inside was grabbing him by the thigh and pulling him back against me – lining my cockhead before pressing it in; ass stretching tightly around me because he definitely hadn't been fucked in a while.
It was heaven seeing Gavin squirm urgently, trying to take me all the way in. I pushed slowly; inch by inch of my cock disappearing as I held his hips to stop him from backing onto me.
"Just fuck me!" he broke out with a sharp gasp and I could feel the blood drain from my head and pool south; cock twitching inside his tight hole.
So I thrust abruptly into him, just far enough to make Gavin moan and fist my sheets eagerly – as if preparing to hold on for dear life. He was as impatient as ever… always wanting to cum as soon as I got it in… I wanted to take my sweet time with this, but wasn't sure how long I could hold out against his demands.
"Aahh – yesss – mmmore!"
I stopped as Gavin whined. "You want it rough?" I asked – although it was made pretty clear, I wanted him to say it; to beg and plead me to give it to him.
"Uh-huh."
"Even though your tight ass is barely taking me like this?" I spanked it just because.
"Yes! Brecken! Please…"
Gavin was sucking me in – taking my dick like a champ as I debated fucking his ass raw or teasing him some more. He whined desperately as I pulled out but it was just so I could slam back into him like he wanted.
"Mmmnnng!"
He felt so fucking good; clenching on my cock – gripping me and bucking to meet my thrusts.
I grasped his slender thighs and pounded into him again with a fierce longing; feeling explosive and out of my fucking mind. I gave it to Gavin like he wanted, going so far as to smack his ass again. The spank made him tighten considerably and cry out, cumming hard as the handprints on his ass smarted. Gavin yielded to the pleasure with trembling spasms, but my pace was unrelenting.
"Yea – you want it like this Gavin?"
I thrust deeply into him over and over as he screamed out an incoherent yes mid-orgasm; fingers locked with my sheets as I ground my cock into him. When he was done spurting all over my sheets, I grabbed his shoulder and twisted him on my dick so he faced me.
"You're going to let me fuck this ass whenever I'm hard?"
"Uh-huh-nn!" Gavin's green eyes were unfocused with post-orgasmic pleasure as I started again, pulling his hips right off the mattress and banging him hard. His shoulders moved with each thrust as his skinny body dangled from me – and my mind was blank except for the idea of cumming so deep inside him he'd be leaking all night.
I grunted with the effort of fucking him so hard, but was already close to the brink of my own orgasm. I could feel it in my balls as they slapped against Gavin; knowing each second I fucked him like this – like a monster - the more I hurt him. His slender hips were already bruising, but Gavin begged for more; writhing insatiably.
"Brecken – I love you so much…"
I let both legs drop just so I could lean over him and press lips against his – panting raggedly. "I love you Gavin. I'll never let you go again. Now spread these slutty legs and let me cum."
He made a delighted noise and obeyed at once – pulling his knees tight to his chest and letting me proceed to impale him.
"Tell me how much you love it," I urged, sweat beading down my body as I helped hold both of his legs. My dick was throbbing; ready to cum any second.
"I-I love it so much when – nn – you fuck me – ee – Brecken…"
Oh good fucking God…
The effect was instantaneous; heart-stopping. I came urgently with a final, vigorous thrust – holding Gavin's legs a little firmer than necessary as hot cum gushed; filling him. I focused on those hooded green eyes – this love of my life – as I drained my cock with a satisfying groan.
My sanity was coming back with the release, although it still took me a moment before I pulled my dick from Gavin and surveyed the damage.
It was quite a sight to behold. Gavin's flesh – unmarked and flawless before getting into this bed – was now noticeably black and blue in many places. I'd only just started feeling guilty when he noticed my look.
"I wanted it rough," he reminded with a coy smile. "Don't worry, I love it."
Although my heart was lighter at the words, I still couldn't believe myself. Promising not to hurt him, then within minutes covering him in bruises and bites…
Perhaps that was just how it was going to be.
I'd make it up to him though – I had a lifetime to give him whatever he wanted. So it was only after I affectionately kissed every mark on his body that I responded with a warning. "Don't tempt this awful part of me."
"I love every part of you. Especially that one."
I trusted these words – mind-reeling with the idea that this is what I'd been missing my entire life. Trust and love – things previously foreign to me. Gavin was a rare treasure I was going to value properly this time.
"Damnit – I'm never letting you go."
We talked all night – at first, mostly about how I'd been doing, what I'd been up to, and what it was like in the detention center.
"It wasn't really like jail," I began as Gavin rested his chin on my chest. "But after six months it kind of felt like it. There was lots of therapy– and lots of gross food. I'm never eating oatmeal again." Gavin laughed, but my stomach turned at the thought of the gruel. "I shared a room with one kid who set his cat on fire, so that was kind of fucked up, but mostly I was a good boy who did what he was told."
"What was therapy like?" Gavin asked.
"It was a lot of talk about feelings. 'How does that make you feel, Brecken?' and 'How do you suppose he felt, Brecken?' –" I mocked my therapists voice with a dry, snooty accent and Gavin smiled at it. "We talked a lot about my parents, San Diego, and you, obviously. It was exhausting sometimes… and I had to do another round of it because it took me so long to cooperate the first time. I learned a lot, like I was always trying to blame things. It was always someone's fault, never my own."
Gavin sighed. "It does sound intense…"
"What about you? What's been going on?"
"Didn't Madden give you the run-down?" Gavin asked with a sly smirk.
"He said you didn't talk to anyone for months but I don't get how you went from that to going on tour and living with Cole."
Gavin took a deep breath and began. "It wasn't a big tour or anything… San Diego was our last show. Actually, it was also our first. Cole called up all his friends and got us a bunch of live gigs around California. Nick was really psyched."
"Okay, now how about the part where you started fucking him."
Face flushing, Gavin tried to hide it from me by burying it into my chest, making it almost impossible to understand his next words. "I – well I told him I didn't want to date! He was just so persistent… at first he just liked if I just sucked his dick a lot –"
I should have been angry at this, but knew it was misplaced. I was just angry at myself for letting him go… "Lucky guy."
Gavin looked back at me – hesitant green eyes turning soft at my lack of psycho rage. "So one thing led to another and finally when I hated going home and started living with him, it was official."
There was a brief silence as I considered Cole's relationship with Gavin.
"He was really into you though," Gavin continued, looking a little less amused. "In the dressing room I could tell he'd set his sights on you. So I was a little pissed… thinking maybe you were going to take him from me…"
"What makes you think – for even a second – I'd want him over you?"
Gavin looked unsure of himself. "Just to piss me off, I guess? You said you love how brave I am, but if you only knew… the truth is I'm actually a coward. I was scared to lose you so I hid so many things – scared to come back to you so I tried my best to stand my ground – scared to be alone so I dated Cole – scared you'd take him away -"
"Then you opened your ears and listened to me?" I ventured, hoping the way I said I loved him had gotten through.
He nodded, black bangs falling into his eyes. "I just kept thinking I would never forgive myself. I had to be with you..."
A short silence passed I relished in this victory, squeezing him tight.
"What about Nick?" I continued, laughing at the glare Gavin gave me at his name. "You guys made up then?"
"His dad is the one who made him press charges… he really wanted to stay out of all of this. But yea, we made up and moved on." Biting his lip, Gavin continued. "And I really hope you can move on from it too. I want you and Nick to be decent to each other…"
The idea was almost absurd at first, but that was just an impulse programmed into me; the raw need to destroy Nick. I was going to do anything for Gavin, including setting aside old grievances.
"Yea, yea. But at least tell me what the hell he means to you…"
"That's a long story…" Gavin sighed against me.
"I've got time. Tell me everything."
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