A/N: not much to say here, just that I was feeling really depressed and wrote bad poetry yesterday in an attempt to feel better. Yeah, tending towards the cutting thing again but self-injury is appealing when you feel like shit.

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The moon never rises without me feeling lost

The shape of my life is tattered and tossed

The sun never sets without drowning in red

Like the blood in my veins I'm burning to shed

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You were white and gold in all that black

We walked away but I want to come back

I won't say love 'cause that's just tempting fate

But I know I felt something more than just hate

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You're my rock, my strength, my charm

And I want nothing more than the feel of your arms

I let myself hope and was kicked down again

I was never more ready to let some trust in

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With Ryan's help I broke myself apart

And I'm asking you to find the pieces of my heart

Don't try to fix me unless you're going to stay

It's going to be a long long time before I'm okay

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If it's too much for you to bear I quite understand

I can't make up my mind I want you anyway I can

Hope's the death of everything but I can't stop myself

I'm hoping to see you again 'cause you can be my health

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I just can't get away from Ryan but he really has screwed my head up…I should get over myself…