A.N.: What's Claire's secret? Read on...

Claire,

I was totally unprepared for your secret. You seem so healthy, so vibrant. It just can't be true! Despite your condition and it's prognosis, I'm not ever going to leave you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm not letting you go without a fight...I love you so much and I'm not about to lose you, you can rest assured. Come to dinner with me...I have a present for you.
Love xxoo,
Danny

Danny,

It's so good to hear you say that. I was afraid you'd abandon me as everyone else (except for a precious few) has. I can't imagine my life before you. I couldn't live without you by my side. Cancer has taken so much from me, but I still have you and that's all that matters. I love you always and forever.
~Claire

Danny,

I can't believe you asked me to marry you! I only have a few weeks left to live and I don't think that it's fair for me to accept your offer. I can't do that to you, knowing that you will soon be a widower. It wouldn't be right. I still love you and hope (pray) that you understand.
Love,
~Claire

Claire,

I'm not going to pretend that I understand. I don't. I know that this is one of those "in my best interest" types of things, but I don't get it. I don't care if I soon become a widower. I want the experience of truly being one person with you in Christ. Please say you'll be my wife. I need that now more than anything.
Please,
Danny

Claire,

Why haven't you written? It's been a week since I last wrote. Are you okay? Please reply to my letters, even if you don't want to marry me. I need you in my life and I believe that you need me to be truly happy. Understand that I love you and that is where my desire to marry you comes from.
Love,
Danny

Danny,

I've been thinking. That's why it's been so long. I really don't know what to say. Each day, my health worsens and I get closer to leaving this world (and you) each day. That is the truth, my love, and I still don't think it's fair for me to marry you. You are such a wonderful man and don't deserve this type of pain. We must see each other soon, though. I love you always.
~Claire

Claire,

Meet me in our place. That is all I have to say.
Love,
Danny

Claire,

I got worried when you didn't show I went by your apartment and saw the ambulance and you, unconscious, on the stretcher. I have been here day and night, seeing you when they let me...praying when they don't. My dearest, I hope I get to see your smile, feel your embrace, and experience your kiss at least once more before you leave this world. Don't forget that I love you. Please wake up again.
Danny

Danny,

I'll never forget the emotions I felt as I awoke. My eyes immediately found yours and I knew at once why I once again awoke. I must help you come to terms with this terrible event. Yes, my darling, I will marry you. I am telling you this in writing because our letters will now be the only way for us to communicate, for I can no longer breath on my own. Thank you for being my guardian angel. If not for you, I never would have experienced true love. I am truly grateful.
All of my love,
~Claire

My dear Mrs. Greenleaf,

Wow! I can't believe that I can actually write that. I am so happy you consented to marry me, even though you will be moving on to the next world shortly. You have made me the happiest man alive. I will never forget you or love anyone else as I have loved you. Please forgive me for not moving on when you are gone. I don't know if I will be able to go on without you.
Your loving husband,
Danny

Danny's Prayer:
Dear God,

Please let Claire enjoy this life a little bit longer! I'm begging you to take me instead of. She doesn't deserve this. Why do you always take the best people from our lives? Why? Why can't you take me? I will gladly exchange my life for hers! I want her to love, laugh, to LIVE! She hasn't had enough time. She'll never get to see her children because there won't be any! She'll never get to see the house I picked for us to live in with the white picket fence and beautiful yard. Don't take her! Please Lord, take anyone else, even me. But don't take Claire! Amen.

Dearest Claire,

I'm so angry with God. I confess that I've prayed angrily to Him. How can he destroy such a beautiful person as you? How can he destroy the purest love ever seen on this planet of His? I don't understand it and probably never will. Please forgive me for being so angry. It's just that I don't know if I can live without you. I love you, Claire Greenleaf!

Danny

My dear boy,

Don't be so angry and bitter. When you become like that, you shut everything else and everyone else out, especially those you love. I use to and then I met you. You made me see life and the possibilities it still held even though I didn't have much longer to live them. Please let these last days with me do the same for you. You CAN live the possibilities and will long after I have gone. Though it doesn't seem like it now, you will move on and there will be life after me. Believe it and it will eventually happen. I love you for eternity, and nothing, not even death, can stop that.

~Claire~

To my best girl,

You will always be much wiser than me. Maybe it's because you were faced with such a horrible fate so early in life. Whatever the reason, I'll never know. To me the world without you will be very bleak and gray. You are the sunshine that lights up my life. Without you there will be no light and no love. I will never love another as I do you. I'm sorry if this upsets you.

Eternally yours,
Danny

Danny,

I want you to love again, and you will. Maybe not with the same passion and magnitude that we love each other, but love will once again light up your life. I'm sure of it. You are too wonderful a person not to love. If you stop loving, you will be robbing the world of its most perfect person. I couldn't bear to think that you will be unhappy when I am gone. Mourn me and then move away from me and us. Move away from our love. Do it for me, dearest. I want you to always be happy. I'm praying for you always.

~Claire~

Claire's Prayer:

My God,

Please help him in his time of need. Show him that we don't always get a reason for your actions, but they are Yours nonetheless. Help Him to realize that he must love again when I am gone. That eventually he will move on and life will once again hold meaning. And God, help me too. It's so hard for me to say these things to him when I don't want him to love after me. It's selfish, I know, but he is my soulmate and I belong with him. I came to terms with the fact that I was dying long ago, but that was before him. Help us, O Lord, in our time of need. Amen.

Danny's Prayer:

God,

I still do not understand WHY! Why must You, who is the greatest in the world, why must you do something so evil? I DON'T UNDERSTAND AND NEVER WILL! I offered my life to you, instead of hers. Please take it! Claire doesn't deserve to have her precious life stolen from her so early in it. I already miss her smile and her voice. The tube down her throat already robbed me of that much. Why do you allow murderers and thieves to stay alive and take the good people from this world? I'm angry! Please help me see your motives. Amen.

Claire,

I'm trying to release my bitterness. I'm praying for God to help me. Please keep praying for me too. I miss your smile and your voice so much! It's so hard to believe that all of you will soon be gone. I refuse to believe it and, in doing so, refuse any other love that will come my way once you are gone. I love you so much that it consumes my soul and I can't see anyone but you. Please don't go.
Eternally yours,
Danny

Dearest boy,

This is probably the last time you will receive a letter from me. I already feel my heart slowing down. You have left the room for a little bit to eat something and to allow me to write my last declaration of love, though you don't know the second part. From the first moment I saw you I felt as if I had known you forever. I'm sorry that our time together was so short. But in this short time, you have come to know me better than anyone. You have given me a different love that I have ever known. From that first time I was hospitalized I realized we were soulmates. For as I awoke that day I caught your eyes and I could see into your soul. I saw everything you felt for me: your love, concern, and fear. Don't be sad, for I've gone to a different place and we will once again be together. Remember you will live and love again. Mourn, then move on. I love you eternally.
Your best girl,
~Claire~
Danny's Prayer:

Dear God,

You took her anyway. I know that you have answered my prayer as You see fit. Please take care of my darling girl and make sure there's room for me by her side. Amen.

Danny's Final Letter:

Claire,

May the angels surround you with beautiful music and visions and never leave your side. Keep smiling down on me and make me remember you always. I'll love you forever and see you again when my time is through. This is my last letter, darling wife. These letters truly did become the windows to our souls.

Danny