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Chapter 13: Boys
"Why, indeed," He whispered as he approached his lips towards mine. My heart was racing and I think have never felt so surprised in all my life. Was he really suggesting that we make out, us, Nathan and Edith, us, friends, when he was going out with Clara? Did I even care? OF course I did; not because having him cheating on Clara would hurt me sooo bad, but because I was in love with him, and if he had so little consideration for his girlfriend, then there was no hope for him at all. His face was still approaching mine when I pulled back.
"What about Clara?" I blurted out.
"I'm not really going out with her," He said.
"What?" I cried. He pulled back and sighed. He sat straight and looked ahead of him.
"Clara is not my girlfriend in the proper sense. We're just... friends. We talk a lot and we kiss sometimes but it's not... it's not real," He looked at me. "Do you understand?"
I shook my head. "Not really."
"We're just friends; the reason you saw me kissing her is because we talked once about what you were supposed to feel when you kissed someone that you loved or cared for, and so it became our little inside joke: that we would kiss from time to time to see if the... magic was there; but she's not really my girlfriend."
"You believe in that?" I asked
"The magic? Sure," He said.
I thought about all he said to me, and I couldn't help but rejoice at the fact that he didn't really have a girlfriend. Maybe now I could tell him that I was in love with him and that I wanted to be his girlfriend; but then, he also said he believed in the magic and true love, etc... what if I wasn't the one for him? What if he felt nothing when I kissed him?
"What about us?" I asked. "I mean, why were you so hell bent on making out with me some minutes ago?" His face approached mine once more
"Because I love you, because I want to be with you."
My breath caught in my lungs as he said the forbidden but so, so sweet words. I couldn't believe he had actually said this.
"You... love... me?" I whispered.
I thought I heard him mumble a 'yes' before his lips crashed on mine, but I couldn't be sure and I couldn't care less than at this moment. His lips tasted so soft and sweet as they brushed against mine, his fingertips brushing from my arm to the back of my neck. My hands found their way in his hair and I marvelled at the touch. How much I had wanted to do that! There was no going back now; he had unleashed sexual-Edith who had been dormant for too much time and who now wanted some action. My right hand went under his shirt and caressed his chest as he kissed me harder, his hands going up and down my sides, but never touching a particular area.
The air between us was too much space and I wanted to feel him, so without thinking, without even contemplating the idea of what I was about to do, I wrapped my legs around him, securing my ankles behind his back. The sudden proximity made him groan, and he put his hands on my hips, trying half-heartedly to push me back, but when he saw I wasn't going to let go, he put a hand on my thigh, and the kiss suddenly became gentle.
Nathan pulled back an inch and looked at me with an expression I could not decipher.
"I love you," He whispered before placing his lips on my neck. I could not bear the feelings his lips was procuring me, brushing from my jawline to my earlobe. His tongue darted out to my neck and I gasped, my body pressing itself to his without my permission. I heard him moan softly and I was surprised at the effect I had on him. He looked so gorgeous, hovering on top of me, his breath ragged. I heard him mumble 'Edith, Edith, Edith' over and over again and I sighed happily.
"Edith? Edith? Wake up, please. God, you're scaring me. I'm gonna have to do mouth to mouth if you don't wake up soon," I heard Nathan's voice say from far away. As if that would wake me up. I didn't care what the world was doing as long as I was lying in Nathan's arms. "You're naked and Ross and Alex are going to arrive any minute."
I jumped up and my eyes flew open. I tried to get up but Nathan's hand help me firmly back in place. I looked up at him to find him fully clothed and I... as well.
"It's alright; just lie down for some minutes, but don't fall asleep again," He said firmly.
"As if I would be able to sleep after that," I grumbled. He laughed.
"It was the only way to wake you up."
"How... how did we end here?" One second we were on the couch, and the other I was... I looked around me and gasped. "Why am I on the floor?"
"You hit your head with the wardrobe and fell down. I'm sorry I wasn't there; I was downstairs and I heard a loud noise. I came running but you were unconscious."
"Wait... what? Why was I in my room?" Weren't we together on the couch? I was really confused now.
"Your clothes were soaked, remember? So you were going to change them," his gaze suddenly stopped on my chest before coming back to my eyes. "By the way, I am seeing a lot more than I should."
I followed his gaze and I would have blushed had we not been making out some minutes ago. My blouse was soaked and not only did it clung to my body, but it was transparent.
"But wait, didn't we...?" Make love, have sex, hooked up?
"Didn't we what?" He asked. I bit my lip. This was way to embarrassing.
"Can I get up?" I asked, looking at his hand on my shoulder. He removed it at once and nodded. I went to sit down on my bed and he followed me. None of this had been real; instead of making out with him, I had hit my head. Yeah, sure, Edith, you know your priorities. I had no immediate want to look at him at this moment, but I knew he was still waiting for an answer; so I glanced up shyly, hoping he was looking elsewhere, but of course, he had to be staring at me.
"So, this wasn't real?" I asked.
"What wasn't real?" He sounded as confused as I was. I racked my brain for a way to explain without embarrassing myself, but there seemed to be none, so I opted for another tactic.
"We weren't sitting on the couch, talking about a movie... and make out," I mumbled the last part.
He moved closer so as to hear. "Make out?"
"Make up," I rectified. "Talking about movies and make up."
He began to laugh and I would have marvelled at the sound, and the way his eyes shone had I not been so embarrassed.
"Are you sure it wasn't with Emma?" I didn't respond and he stopped laughing. He moved closer to me and put an arm around my shoulder. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have laughed. I was just so... stressing seeing you lying there, unconscious, and I'm happy you're okay."
I looked up at him; how I wanted to tell him what was really torturing my mind, that I had not been angry at him, but at myself for believing such things could happen. That one day this Greek God would tell me he loved me and that he couldn't live without me. I sighed inwardly. How stupid I had been.
"It's alright," I said and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "What happened exactly?" I asked. I did not really want to accidentally tell him about something that didn't really happen and make a fool of myself; and I had to remind myself not to pronounce the term 'make out' or he would think I was lusting over him. Well, I was... kind of, but he didn't need to know. Not unless he was having the same thoughts concerning me.
"You remember asking me for a ride home?" He asked, looking at me curiously. Okay now he thinks I'm crazy. Calm down, Edith.
"Yeah, of course."
"Well we arrived here and your clothes were soaked because it was raining outside. You said you were going to change and I said I'd wait for you downstairs. I was watching TV when I heard a loud noise. I asked you if everything was okay but you didn't reply so I ran upstairs and found you lying on the floor. You were holding your head so I figured you had hit your head with the wardrobe and fell down," Edward explained.
I frowned at his words. How come I didn't remember any of this? And how come I had made up a whole parallel universe while I was sleeping? It had seemed so real and I swore I could still feel his touch. My dreams had never been so vivid. I looked up at Nathan and saw that he was watching me, worried.
"Are you sure you're okay?" He asked. "Maybe we could go to the ER; I have a friend who works there. He could see if there's something wrong with your head..."
"There's nothing wrong with my head!" I snapped. He looked at me, apologetic.
"I didn't mean it that way."
"I know; I'm sorry. Don't worry about me. I'm perfectly fine," I said.
"Are you sure?" He asked, still a bit hesitant about whether I was alright or not
I nodded. "I'm sure." I looked down at my clothes and this time I did blush. "I think I need to change. Could you..."
He chuckled. "Sure. I'll be waiting downstairs."
"No, could you.. I mean, I'm sure you have lots of homework, and I still have to add that contact of mine and get to know him if he's online. We'll talk tomorrow at school," I said.
"Alright," He agreed. "I'm going to add my contact as well. See you tomorrow." He stood by the door for a moment, smiling and I simply stared at how beautiful he looked. Then he got out of his trance, shook his head slightly, and walked out of the door, while I siimply lay down on my bed, my soaked clothes forgotten.
After a while I remembered I still had to add my contact. I got out of bed and sat in front of my PC. The thing took forever but it finally turned on. I entered my new email address on the msn and signed in. After some minutes I was signed in, and I could see the free space my lack of contacts provided. I quickly added Eva-L-girl() and waited for the invitation to be sent.
Realizing it would take some time before my contact came online, I went in my usual hotmail and began to check my mails. Alice sent me some jokes that I really had to laugh out loud to.
10 Commandments of a Teenager
Thou shall not sneak out when parents are sleeping.
(why wait that long)
2) Thou shall not do drugs.
(alcohol lasts longer, not to mention being cheaper.)
3) Thou shall not steal from K-Mart.
(Walmart has a bigger selection)
4) Thou shall not be arrested for vandalism.
(destruction has a bigger effect, I can tell you all about this)
5) Thou shall not steal from your parents.
(everyone knows grandma has more money)
6) Thou shall not get into fights.
(Cat fight anyhow...just start them.)
7) Thou shall not skip class.
(just take the whole day off)
8) Thou shall not strip in class.
(Hooters pays more)
9) Thou shall not think about having sex.
(like Nike says, "just do it")
10) Thou shall not help old ladies across the street.
(just leave'm in the middle)
I was still laughing when the sound signalling that a contact came online came from the speaker. Feeling very excited, I opened my msn and noted with pleasure that Eva-L-girl was online.
Eva- Hey cool! You're online!
NTTS- Yep, I am. What's up?
Eva- Nothing much. Just checking my mails. I haven't got a single one.
NTTS- Ohh, poor you. Let me send you something.
I went on the email Alice had sent me and clicked on 'send', then I typed in my contact's email address.
NTTS- There. Check it once more.
It took her some minutes to respond and when she did, it was with an emoticon laughing hysterically and pounding his fists on the floor.
Eva- That is good. Wow, I haven't laughed so much in days.
NTTS- Good. I'm glad I could help you come back to a healthy lifestyle. Laughing is good.
Eva- Oh, don't worry, I know about that. It is I usually who tells the jokes.
NTTS- You have some competition here, darling.
Eva- Ohhh, darling... lol. I love that. Um... wait, are you a girl or a boy? So that I know because it would feel creepy if you were a boy.
NTTS- Girl. Aren't you?
Eva- Nope. Boy. And I look like it.
NTTS- Really? Why is your remail address eva-L- girl, then? Isn't that a bit weird?
Eva- Nope, not in my opinion. I love Eva Longoria.
NTTS- Desperate much?
Eva- 'cause of Desperate Housewives? Lol. Yeah, kind of. Do you know Season 6 will be starting soon?
NTTS- Yeah, I know! I'm impatiently waiting for Thursday. My friends and I usually watch it together but a lot of things have changed since season 5 was playing, so I dunno if the plan is still up.
Eva- Am I invited if it's still the case?
NTTS- Uh... no. We're not supposed to meet until this project is over. Remember?
Eva- Oh, screw Jordy. His rules are stupid.
NTTS- lol. I don't know you. You could be a psychopath for all I know. Plus I was thinking you were a girl and now that I know you're a guy, I'll be more reluctant about meeting you. Maybe when we know each other better.
Eva- Sex discrimination! It's not fair. Girls can be as atrocious as boys.
NTTS- Oh yeah, I know. Too much for my taste, if I dare say.
Eva- Got some problems with some girls? Tell me who they are; I'ma kick their butts!
NTTS- Kick or kiss?
Eva- Kick! I have a girlfriend, darling.
NTTS- Oh really? What's her name?
Eva- We're not supposed to tell. You'll know who I am if I tell you.
NTTS- Are you that known in the school?
Eva- Kind of, I guess. Can't know exactly, though. I would have to do a survey for that. What about you?
NTTS- If I'm well known at school?
Eva- No; do you have a boyfriend? Or a girlfriend for that matter?
NTTS- lol. Nope and nope.
Eva- See? I don't do discrimination.
NTTS- Very fair.
Eva- What does your nickname mean? I've been trying to figure out since I received the paper.
NTTS- NTTS: Not Taking This Seriously
Eva- You aren't? I think it's cool. Plus, it counts for 35% of the marks. Not that I care about getting good marks but it's an easy way for my level in English to rise.
NTTS- That's why I'm doing it.
NTTS- What do you like apart that?
Eva- Everything. Lol. I can do practically everything you ask for.
NTTS- You surf?
Eva- When I go to the beach sometimes.
NTTS- You hike?
Eva- Yep. I love hiking. You?
NTTS- Not really my thing. Maybe I should try sometimes. I haven't done it since I was 12.
Eva- Seriously? You really should! I love camping as well. The feeling that you're the only survivor of this crazy world, the fresh air, the stars...
NTTS- The mosquitoes...
Eva- Yeah, that as well. Lol.
NTTS- And the constant strange smell at night.
Eva- Are you always this pessimistic?
NTTS- I try to be realistic.
Eva- I'm sure I can make you like it.
NTTS- Maybe, but don't hold your breath. I'm not really the nature kind of girl.
Eva- Neither is my girlfriend but I have some guy friends with whom I go camping from time to time.
NTTS- My friends aren't interested in camping either. Their favourite hobby is... tada... SHOPPING! That's their favourite word too.
Eva- My girlfriend is addicted to shopping as well.
NTTS- Known her for long?
Eva- Depends on your definition of long. I haven't known her since that much time but I feel like I have known her for years.
NTTS- You're in love, then?
Eva- It's not that serious yet. We're still in the stage 'I like you', but I think I love her, yes. It's a strange feeling: love, huh? Some weeks or even days ago you are living your life as if you were complete in any way possible, but then someone new enters your life and it seems like you can't bear to be away from her anymore.
I sighed. Eva was mirroring my exact thoughts. It was time to leave because the conversation was getting too personal for my taste.
NTTS- You're right. This is exactly how it feels. Now, if you'll excuse me, I've got to go.
Eva- Hey, wait!
NTTS- I really have to go. We'll talk some other time, okay? See ya.
Eva- Alright. Goodnight.
And with that I signed out.
Hi guys. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I've got something to tell you. My exams start tomorrow and will last for 3 weeks, so I'm not going to be able to udpate. But don't worry, as soon the holidays start, I will start writing again, and I can tell you it's worth the wait :p
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