-Shattered-

Oliver

Ayla

Silvester

Amos

Severely Crushed

Don't Look At Me

Hearing Voices

Distances Disappear

Panic Attack In Heaven

The Truth Inside The Lines

Shaken Down

Deeper And Deeper

It Was Left Like That For A Reason

Revenge Is A Twisted Sense Of Happiness

Corner Of Hell

Nothing Comes To Life

Will I Continue

Shadow Misery

De Profundis

Killing With Control

By Your Side

I'd Scream If I Could

Shattering

ACT I

Scene 1-

(Oliver is sitting on a curb in the middle of no where. It is a Thursday in October.)

Oliver:

A E

Open my eyes

You've let me down

I cannot get up anymore

Closing the square

Persistently aware

Find me a place before

The crash

G# Cm

Rushing just to clear my head

I've said you always had it better

Crashing just to fear the dead

I've always said it fucking to her

Cm G# A# Gm

Let me run away

I'm a burden on your pain

Cm G# A# D# (D)

I know that I can go

But it's killing all the same

Cm A# G# A#

Let me fucking leave

Let me fucking breathe

I'm not here anymore

Cm

Just let me go

G# Cm

I've said it before

Just let me go

I'll die on my own

Who needs a home

I'm crushed already

Just let me go

Severely crushed

(Just let me go

Severely crushed)

Cm G# A# Gm

Let me run away

I'm a burden on your pain

Cm G# A# D# (D)

I know that I can go

But it's killing all the same

Cm A# G# A#

Let me fucking leave

Let me fucking breathe

I'm not here

I'm not here anymore

Just let me go

I'm not here

Anymore

I'm severely crushed

I'm not here

Just let me go

(Ayla appears)

Ayla: You seem, well not the same

Oliver: I feel, well not the same

Ayla: What's wrong?

Oliver: Nothing, I'm fine. (Muttering) What's happening.

Scene 2-

(Oliver stands up and starts walking down an abandoned street, covering his ears)

Oliver:

Em C

They're all looking at me

Taking their time to look at me

Get out of my eyes don't look at me

Stop staring through my disguise

Let the staring rise as the tearing dies

Don't look at me

Em C Em G (F#)

Don't look at me

Stop staring and glaring

Don't be with me

Facing and Chasing

Don't talk to me

It's always the same

You're following my blame

Saying I'm insane

Don't look at me

Em C

You're all looking at me

Working your similar looks at me

Glancing and glaring don't look at me

What do you see I'm trying to run free

WHat do you see when you look at me

Em C Em G (F#)

Don't look at me

Stop staring and glaring

Don't be with me

Facing and Chasing

Don't talk to me

It's always the same

You're following my blame

Saying I'm insane

Don't look at me

You don't think i see, when you're looking at me

But I know, I know

Em C Em G (F#)

Don't look at me

Stop staring and glaring

Don't be with me

Facing and Chasing

Don't talk to me

It's always the same

You're following my blame

Saying I'm insane

Don't look at me

Ayla: (Running behind out of breath) Oliver... Oliver

Oliver: Did you see them?

Ayla: What are you talking about. Oliver, you aren't yourself anymore. Oliver, Oliver, what have you become.

Oliver: Ayla, please go away, you've done enough harm.

Ayla: If that's what you say.

Oliver: It's what you've done.

Ayla: I'll go away. You're running from, the truth.

Oliver: I'm running to freedom.

Ayla: Why are you running from me.

Oliver: It's what you've done. (Pause) Oh god.

Scene 3-

(Oliver sits down at the side of the curb.)

Oliver: Ayla, I can't explain.

Ayla: You're in pain.

Oliver: Not just that.

Ayla: You're not the same.

Oliver: Ayla, they tell me.

Ayla: Tell you to be?

Oliver: Listen, please.

Ayla: I hear nothing.

Oliver:

F#m D E

Beware of the dark where the hate seems to hide

Two lines gather on both sides

And there love is far from home, in the black hole i feel

Exposing that loneliness is real

F#m D E

They tell me I'm wrong I must follow their sighs

Realistically I'm not being wise

They say they are helping but in truth its a lie

Release me or else I will die

F# E D A F# E D F#

Sacrifice the beast in mind

I'm going down, I'm leaving life

The staring will never cease

Until I'm blind, I"m losing time

I'm hearing voices in my head

Telling me its going to spread

Lend a hand and help instead

Of thinking it will be the end

F#m D E

Convince my conscience that they aren't real

Its hurting every time I feel

Paranoia strands and strains of light

convince me that it isn't time

F# E D A F# E D F#

Sacrifice the beast in mind

I'm going down, I'm leaving life

The staring will never cease

Until I'm blind, I"m losing time

I'm hearing voices in my head

Telling me its going to spread

Lend a hand and help instead

Of thinking it will be the end

Scene 4-

Oliver:

I love this girl. This story breaks me down.

I've found I'm lost in her smile.

Months before, she had loved me too.

But what could i do. She found another person.

His name was Amos. I saw them spending time

Together. I hated Amos. I hated Amos. Ayla and I

Were slipping away, forever. Degrading famous

Of my mind. Why. Why. Why. I hate Amos. I hate

Amos. She was slipping away. Painfully.

C Cmaj9 Am E

Lying isn't in my favor

Scissors take away my dares

Special faces kill my savior

Running through the absent stares

Fighting every single soul

Letting wishes tie it's bind

Instantly i lose control

And suddenly my ears are blind

C Cmaj9 Am F

Watching everyone around me

The blurs that follow me home

As I stand to gain reality

Nothing ever feels alone

C Cmaj Am G

When its cold and its dark

Life is damp but not out

And you find you're alone

And it's killing the doubt

Am F C G

Why am I still trying

When there's nothing left

I'm dying to live my life

Why am I still hanging on

I'm about to break

What I know is wrong

G F# Em Am Em C E E Em D C Cmaj9

Am F C G

Why am I still trying

When there's nothing left

I'm dying to live my life

Why am I still hanging on

I'm about to break

What I know is wrong

Oliver: I had her in my arms.

What it was like before.

She fell asleep swinging.

Never anymore. Never anymore.

[Panic Attack In Heaven]

There's a lot of things I'd like to say

But my mouth gets dry and it goes away

Then something's still on my mind

But I got no time and I have to pray

There's a lot of things I'd like to do

But its running through would you like to?

There's a lot of i hate pain

Till its go away and I'm half insane

I can't help it

I will need you here

Love isn't for one

You take away my fear

I can't help it

I will need you here

This feeling that we share

Panic attack in heaven

Swinging on the gentle hammock

Where the beat is clear and I have you near

Where protection seems to slip away

And you're left with the sound of what we can take

I can't help it

I will need you here

Love isn't for one

You take away my fear

I can't help it

I will need you here

This feeling that we share

Panic attack in heaven

Oliver: I had to move on and let go.

But I couldn't convince myself to do so.

I was irrevocably, and desperately in love with her.

Oliver:

I know the difference between right and wrong

But lately I feel I want to kiss you

And when I replay the events to come

I realize how much I'd really miss you

If we hold each other will you smile?

Is this hurting you more when I speak?

I haven't felt your touch in a while

Will it get me stronger or keep me weak

Happiness' perceptive am I happy

I can be happier if you loved me

Yet neither of us love ourselves equally

Must we wait and see whilst our lives are free

Am I truthful when I say I love you

Or lying 'cause I want it to be true

Scene 5-

(Ayla is in her room thinking.)

Ayla: Oliver, what happened. You are spiraling down a tunnel of... I don't know. I still love you.

Ayla:

Am E F G

Let me through the closing wound

I've heard you smile I've seen you lose

You scarcely ever hold your own and

When you do you're all alone

I've seen you cry a thousand times

You shouldn't hide within your mined

I'll take a scar and feel the time

You can not hide inside your eyes

Am G F G

Its been too long to find out where we are

(I'm leaving without you but I won't get far)

I know in time you'll find a sign

(I'll break it down as you go by)

Am E F G

Here I hide, where am I

I'll achieve but I won't try

Pretend you have another life

And see your smile awaken light

Every word I've ever heard

Has been to me you won't be scared

Covered up she's shaken up

Broken down, please let me out

Am G F G

Its been too long to find out where we are

(I'm leaving without you but I won't get far)

I know in time you'll find a sign

(I'll break it down as you go by)

Its been too long to find out where we are

(I'm leaving without you but I won't get far)

I know in time you'll find a sign

(I'll break it down as you go by)

Scene 6-

(Oliver is with his friend Silvester while his voices start talking).

Oliver:

Gm F Dm C A# Gm

Pale as cold as spinning out of my surface

When did you do this, hey you

Pale as cold as spinning out of my surface

How did you do this, hey you

Gm F Dm C A# Gm

Cold and wrong and wasting your time but you

Can't exactly find a sign, hey you

Cold and wrong and wasting your time but you

Won't exactly find a sign

Am A# Am Gm

I'm only hanging on

I'm only hanging on

Oliver's Voices- You are not sick.

Get rid of it. Get rid of this peace.

Follow us or you will suffer.

Oliver: Shut up.

Silvester: What?

Oliver: Not you.

Silvester: Then who?

Oliver:

Aside from the rain i've yet to bring my tears

It's just a replica for the ending of our years

Its just a stop sign in the middle of no where

Where all the obsessions lie with my fear

Why must the shivering stop when I want it

Why must the happiness end when I need it

Where is the light when I can't see anything

Is there any light left in the world to give me hope

I'm looking for you

Why do I stab myself with anger

When do I leave it to agree

For how long have I waited for pain

And I will wait again

Oliver: Hey Silvester. Do you see Ayla flirting with everyone.

Silvester: No I don't see her flirting with anyone but you.

Oliver: She doesn't flirt with me.

Silvester: Oliver, what don't you see!

Oliver: Well for one thing, she is now seeing Amos.

Silvester: Whose Amos?

Oliver: Some guy she met over the Summer.

Silvester: You are very wrong. She still likes you, Oliver.

(Silvester leaves the room.)

Oliver: Why does she have to do this to me!

Voices: Then follow us. Follow our path.

Oliver: It's not you anymore. It's me. I want revenge.

I want her to feel my pain.

Oliver:

Dm C A# Dm C

End this fucking misery

I cannot underestimate

Pretend everything is just fine

As she kills you inside

They say I'm cruel I want revenge

I want pity I want happiness

But I just can't grasp the concept of being free

Dm C A# Dm C

End this fucking misery

Repeating just to await

An answer I have in mind

Deleting ones sense of life

Of our soul in the end its misery

I feel I'm getting better but in truth

I'm just spiraling farther inside my head

Dm Am A# F Am

When will i see that this misery isn't only here

And until I can be what I want to be, impossibility

I leech on your blood and only sometimes I am sorry

It's disturbing, don't worry, I'm just sitting here

I won't be sorry

Dm C A# Dm C

End this fucking misery

Even when depression doesn't exist

I don't want to see it

Denials not leaving, I don't want it to be this

Until I lose myself I don't want to be this

What am i waiting for

Let it go

Dm Am A# F Am

When will i see that this misery isn't only here

And until I can be what I want to be, impossibility

I leech on your blood and only sometimes I am sorry

It's disturbing, don't worry, I'm just sitting here

I won't be sorry

Scene 8-

(He realizes he had hurt her and after school then goes to her locker.)

Oliver:

I left myself on the corner of hell

I stayed for awhile until my skeleton melted

Well into the quiet i experienced silence

Tended to the banquet of sanctity and elegant

I stated the obvious until nothing was left

I vented to begin, until I sent the letter in

I left myself on the corner of hell

With a voice I couldn't tell was me

It was separated from the truth to be

And rescued from the rest to plead

I cannot understand that need

That desire to be that desire to be

I left myself on the corner of hell

I can't believe its true, I can't deny it but i do

I left this place in hopes of re-growth

And all I'm left with is nothing but both

Oliver: (Approaching Ayla) Ayla.

Ayla: Oliver.

Oliver: I've been hearing voices.

Ayla: Your conscience? What did you do this time (half-jokingly).

Oliver: No, Ayla. I've been hallucinating. I think I have schizophrenia.

(Ayla looks at him in disbelief.)

Ayla: What?

Oliver: I've been hearing things. Everywhere i go people are staring at me.

Ayla: God. (She falls to the floor.) Oliver. You must see a doctor.

Oliver: I can't.

Am F

I looked to the edge of the woods

The grain pattern eliminated hope

It ended as abrupt as it could

The rain thundered until someone spoke

Spent on nothing at all

I feel the dreaming before the flood

Worth just to waste a fall

I experienced the sanctitude of blood

Am G F A A Am G F Am G F Am G

Believing is half of all lies

A presence of death in their eyes

We walk until never arrives

And we watch as society dies

Am F

I trace along with the clouds

Trying without difference

The same speak aloud

Remaining before the entrance

I can hear the voices that yell

Claiming there is no one above

Don't try to escape from hell

It follows the death of love

Am G F A A Am G F Am G F Am G

Believing is half of all lies

A presence of death in their eyes

We walk until never arrives

And we watch as society dies

Am F

Trails of sorrow and hate

Burning inside my veins

The dripping may stop and wait

But salvation continues to reign

I've seen you before the fall

The crash seems just so surprising

Leave it to nothing at all

To help revive the uprising

Am G F A A Am G F Am G F Am G

Believing is half of all lies

A presence of death in their eyes

We walk until never arrives

And we watch as society dies

Am G F A A Am G F Am G F Am G

Believing is half of all lies

A presence of death in their eyes

We walk until never arrives

And we watch as society dies

ACT II

Scene 1-

(In Silvester's room.)

Oliver: Silvester, every time I look at her. A war is created in my head.

I don't want to hurt her, but I can't help it.

Silvester: Let it go, Oliver.

Oliver: I'd do anything for her. I'd kill myself for her.

Silvester: Now you're just thinking crazy.

Oliver:

A# Gm

Never will I appreciate your ways

And always will I tear you down with grace

Yes half of all the people will be saved

D# F A#

While more than half will take it to the grave

A# Gm

It scares me that I felt nothing at all

When the strength I had I couldn't recall

I fix it just to pick up once again

D# F A#

After then and only then shall i begin

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

A# Gm

I claim that normal ways are yet involved

And all the strangest problems are resolved

Avoiding once again I stare at you

D# F A#

As you throw your life away it's never through

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

Gm D# F

Will I run away or will I continue

Gm D# A# F

It lies in every darkness in you

Scene 2-

Voices: Good.

Oliver: Shut up. I know I'm losing my mind. I'm losing control. You are a shadow, killing my soul.

Oliver:

There is a shadow

Working at the soul

There is nothing to calm you down

When you're all alone

There is a believer

Who gets shot down

Why does everything have to end

When I come around

And the clear black tears

I feel on my fear

The coating that just wont go away

Is this pain ruling through

This game of the truce

This darkness that just wont go away

Leave me bleeding inside my soul

The copper gold that steals the old

Black and red the chain that said

I never knew I would lie

I just wanted the shadow dead

There is a shadow

Killing breaths of air

Its not allowing you to feel

Its not allowing you to care

There is a shadow

Working at the soul

There is nothing to pull your head up

When you're all alone

Don't let that fear kick in

Its not yet here fuck it

It will disappear after you acknowledge the fact

That its not here fuck it

You can't let that fear kick in

Its all a fucking all a fucking all a mindless black act

(Covered in blood)

Talking:

To take a hammer to my heart

It would be the same situation

As if you were to hate me

These fucking metaphors are talking

And I wander through the black sea

It all comes down to the shadow misery

Music:

But the fucking shadow isn't here

The fucking shadow isn't real

It hides from the sun but the one

Time its done is when you're done

There is a shadow

Working at the soul

There is nothing to calm you down

When you're all alone

There is a believer

Who gets shot down

Why does everything have to end

When I come around

There is a shadow

Killing breaths of air

Its not allowing you to feel

Its not allowing you to care

There is a shadow

Working at the soul

There is nothing to pull your head up

When you're all alone

Don't let that fear kick in

Its not yet here fuck it

It will disappear after you acknowledge the fact

That its not here fuck it

You can't let that fear kick in

Its all a fucking all a fucking all a mindless black act

(Covered in blood)

Despite what you say in your simple plea

It all comes down to the fucking shadow misery

Leave me bleeding inside my soul

The copper gold that steals the old

Black and red the chain that said

I never knew I would lie

I just wanted the shadow dead

Leave me bleeding inside my soul

The copper gold that steals the old

Black and red the chain that said

I never knew I would lie

I just want that shadow to die

Its fucking living my life for me

That fucking shadow misery

That fucking shadow misery

That fucking shadow misery

Oliver: I'm losing her. I'm hurting her.

I love you Ayla. Love me.

Oliver:

Am G F G

De Profundis Clamo Ad Te Domine

Love me

Domine Domine Domine Domine

Scene 3-

(Oliver is breaking down)

Oliver:

C#m A

Insignificant lights show

Look to any mortals who know where the sun goes

When the heat turns to cold breath

You're left with your lonely, lonely death row

Cold air hides there while the moon comes out to stare at you

C#m B A B

Holding but a soul

In its gleams of shining eyes

They look through your disguise, killing with control

Killing with control (This is my demise)

Its killing with control

C#m A

There's always a sense for lighting up the flame

And there's no one left to counter all the blame

I'm scared here, afraid here

Let me keep my name, find out where it goes and I'll do the same

C#m B A B

I have gone insane, denying all the pain

I feel that I can breathe it's hiding in my brain

So i can never leave its falling like the rain

I know i've gone insane, I know i've gone insane

C#m B A F#m (Try C#m A G#m B or C#m A F#m B)

I can not explain

A candle is my strain

Say its killing with control

And I have gone insane

All that shall remain

And all that I will know

I still have my soul but its

Killing with control

C#m A

Sleeping on a power line and in due time

Shock me so I know that I still have some control here

Only holding so close, don't run listen to the stone

C#m B A B

Eradicating light, yes, listen with your sight

Connecting in the night, electricity is right, my veins are pumping life

Until I'm on a roll I'm killing with control

I know I'm Killing with Control

C#m B A F#m

I can not explain

This candle has my flame

Say its killing with control

Let me keep my name

All that shall remain

And all that I will know

I have gone insane as I'm

Killing with control

C#m B A F#m

I still have my soul as I'm killing with control

(Oliver has a mental breakdown in his room and he is admitted into the hospital.)

Ayla: Oliver. I am staying with you.

Ayla:

In my eyes, I have seen the paths in my life

Life, it can never change to realize that

I, I know that one can try to find

Self-fulfilling, inside my mind

In my eyes, I will never stay till I die

For my life, I will not wait to try

Everywhere, I've seen the happiness in disguise

Let it out, I am here by your side

When you're happy, I am here

When you're sad, I will cry

When you're hopeless, I will feel

When you leave, I will die

When you're scared, I will let

Your life into mine

When you're here, I'll be here

I'll be here by your side

In my eyes, I will never stay till I die

For my life, I will not wait to try

Everywhere, I've seen the happiness in disguise

Let it out, I am here by your side

Oliver: Ayla. How have you been? It's been awhile. A long while.

Ayla: (Confused) It was yesterday that we talked.

Oliver: Leverage. My dear. Leverage and Persistence. Persistence and Leverage.

Ayla: Oliver.

Oliver: How is Amos?

Ayla: Who is Amos?

Oliver: Who is Amos. Ha-ha you hear her? (Motioning to nothing) He's your boyfriend. Remember.

Ayla: Amos?

Oliver: Of course!

Ayla: I don't know anyone named Amos.

Oliver: Amos, from the summer.

Ayla: I dont know what you're talking about...

Oliver: Hm?

Ayla: Oliver, I am in love with you.

Oliver: What?

Ayla: There is no Amos, Oliver.

Oliver: There is no Amos.

Oliver:

As I lose my mind everyone stares

And as I break down nobody cares

All worried about something thats not there

Where am I when I find I am not aware

I am not there

As dark as it can possibly seem I can saunter by

And no one seems to notice me my skin is pale and shattering

The mind is floating quietly and I am watching intently

For any signs to break my self control

And I wash along the shore

Wearing but a face

My pallid attitude

My familiar disgrace

It's always been a lie

Through it all

It's always been a lie

Don't let me die on my own

Let it go, let it go

Clearly I have sinned

Let it go, let it go

I will not ever win

I'd scream if I could

Scene 4-

(Oliver wakes up in an enclosed room without is in the corner shouting.)

Oliver: Where am I. Where have they gone.

Oliver:

Shattering, I can't see the world through your eyes

When I walk I can try

But your shoes do not fit mine

By a mile I'll be gone

From that moment on

You'll be alone, I'll be alone

And our ground with touch the sky

Shattering, I can't wait 'till I pass you by

I thought it would feel different

I thought that it was time

Inside the mind is ticking

Waiting for the sign to go

Disappearing Slowly, Lonely

As my ground will touch the sky

Shattering, you will soon depart from me

I don't know what you're thinking

I can hardly wait to see

Is it something I'd want to hear

Or is it something else

Lonely fear, You want me here

As youre ground will touch the sky

Shattering, I can't see the world through your eyes

When I walk I can try

But your shoes do not fit mine

By a mile I'll be gone

From that moment on

You'll be alone, I'll be alone

And our ground with touch the sky

Oliver: Everyone is gone.