-=Anxiety=-
Marc
August
Cosme
Cécile
Tempest
Curt
Valentine
Chase
Cordell
Lamond
Scene 1- Stealing Energy
(In a dark room. Marc is sitting alone.)
Marc: I fell down as my words called out
With an echoed voice, there was too much sound
Ringing in my ears wondering why I'm here
Singing through the noise, leaving only fear
My lungs cry out, and my voice dies out
And I'm shaking fast, there was too much sound
My veins pump blood, as I choke on mud
Let go of me, I can not breathe
This is you doing this to yourself
These are your eyes revealing no one else
I'm lightly fading, this pain is staying
My minds betraying, I can not feel
This isn't letting up to realize
These are your eyes, stealing energy
I'm lightly praying, my soul's decaying
Torn and fraying, for fear is real
My wounds can't be seen, they're created in my dreams
Appear to me, screaming, let it be
This pain I cannot shake, but it is shaking me
My limbs are freezing cold, my head is in a hole
My brain is on parole, my heart is pounding fast
This pain you cannot know, this pain can't possibly
Last in my soul
This is you doing this to yourself
These are your eyes revealing no one else
I'm lightly fading, this pain is staying
My minds betraying, I can not feel
This isn't letting up to realize
These are your eyes, stealing energy
I'm lightly praying, my soul's decaying
Torn and fraying, for fear is real
Scene 2- Worth Your Time
(Walking through the hallways with August and Tempest)
E
Marc: When I walk through hallways
Past classes and I walk all day
Just to leave that goddamn room
Just cause I can't stay
August: Cope and you will get away
Listen to us, we all have shame
Follow the rules in this game
And we will do the same
Marc: No you just don't understand
None of this was ever planned
I can't be in the goddamn
Rooms are never named
Tempest: You have gotten all this fame
Just follow us please try and pray
At least just try, dont be a slave
Marc: I have tried. I'm too afraid
F C (B)
Marc: You don't know how I feel
You think I like this activity
I have nothing to appeal
I leave the room in agony
Marc: I know you're just trying to help
But my health is fading down
Let me go away from here
Let me escape right now
Marc: Can't you listen, please, to me
I can not leave, I can not breathe
August: No I guess I can't understand
But let me lend a hand
Marc: And feel this misery?
F C (B)
Marc: You have tried to save my life
And I appreciate your tries
But I've given up, I can not lie
I'm just not worth your time
You have tried to save my life
And I appreciate your tries
But I've given up, I can not lie
I'm just not worth your time
Scene 3- Why Are We Here
Em G C
Marc: Where am I, where have I gone
Life is different without the innocent
Its like I stepped outside of the sliding doors
And until now I couldn't feel the sun
I could see things going around me
Chaos breaking out, ideas astound me
Nothing left to feel the pain
The glass is broken in my name
I'm carving out a piece of hate
My temper extends my need to wait
Em C Am
If you can't relate, then get out of my face
I'm not in the mood, my actions may be rude
But my feelings are speaking some truth
Em C G (F#)
August: Why exist if society dismisses variety
It misses entirely, why are we here
Marc: Guide me in here, why can't I hear the sign
To continue, why am I here if I live just to suffer
And when it appears to be enough
Where is a message, why is it tougher
To be believe in a reason to just keep on living
Why keep on giving, when no one gives to me
Sleep on it, dream on it
There's nothing to love when nothings in place
And now I don't want to escape the craze
Chaos makes life meaningful
Nothing makes life meaningfull
We exist to make life meaningful
When no one gives to make life meaningful
Make a list of the bad, and you'll find you had
Too many lines and points to continue
Burn up the list, doesn't leave it to this
The reasons are still not satisfied
Nothing creates my life
Em C G (F#)
How is there a god, if the good suffer
If that bad betray, and the righteous pay
How do we know to hang in there
Nothing tells us to hang in there
Why continue to die without a name
To die in vain, when you're living all the same
August: Release my shame and listen
Release the blame and soak it in
Release the pain and play the game
If you cheat, then you'll never win
Marc: How is there a god, if the good suffer
If that bad betray, and the righteous pay
How do we know to hang in there
Nothing tells us to hang in there
Why continue to die without a name
To die in vain, when you're living all the same
Should I play along
When happiness may be a long way home
Scene 4- Anxiety
(In a classroom)
Dm C F
Marc: I can't concentrate
This learning will have to wait
Open up the door and break out to the light
Escape society and run into the night
For life is quite a long journey to go
And I'm not ready for more pain to show
Irrational fears jump into woe
You don't want to reveal that you don't know
Cosme: Hey Marc, are you alright?
August: He might be. Slightly.
Dm C F
Marc: Trace the scratches in the sand
Hold the key in your hand
Secretly by my command
Open up and let me in
Look it up and take a seat
Let it go accept defeat
Let the mind wander
As the thoughts saunter
Dm C G
Let them come here
A cloud of smoke (is near)
Has just awoken fear
Why am I here?
(Banging on the door)
Dm Am A# F
Shaking fast, I've got to relax
Eliminate the facts of depression
And I'm dragging out the ax
Dm Am A# F
I'll chop up the sun, rationality is gone
My thoughts are all wrong
And I'm taking way too long
Dm Am A# C Dm
A war is breaking out, take cover
Fear has taken over
Dm Am A# Dm
Is there anyone out there who can feel my pain
My anxiety, my shame
Can't think of another happy thought
Everything and everyone is lost
Is there anyone out there who can feel my pain
My anxiety, my shame
Can't think of another happy thought
Everything and everyone is lost
(Scream)
Anxiety has taken over me
Scene 5- Understand
(Lunch)
Cécile- You haven't been paying attention much in school.
Cosme: It's cause he can't take their ruling over him.
August: Who are you to skin his attitude.
Win with gratitude. Buy and sell the goods, of life.
Cosme: I just think he's over exaggerating.
August: And you are plagiarizing, his words.
Marc: Listen all of you, you don't understand.
You can't understand, unless you live in my head.
Cécile: That's what he said. Cosme, his words cold and dead.
Marc: Listen all of you, you don't know what its like.
Every time I try to live my own life.
I'm always thinking. What might happen a second more.
Before the night is out. I start another war.
I'm going over so many thoughts
Now I'm wasting half my life. Tasting the evil sorts.
In all this mess, a struggle progresses
And my soul depresses, rest in my fort
I built with my cold dead words. My cold dead hands
You don't understand
You don't understand
You won't understand
It seems like I'm crazy
I think that I'm crazy
Creating these phases of troublesome thoughts
I think that I"m crazy lately
You don't understand
Cécile: They won't understand.
But I might. I might understand.
If you give me a chance. Marc
I might understand.
Scene 6- Crawling Out Of A Hole
Marc: When I'm lying no where.
I see nothing. I see blood dripping.
I see people dying. People that I love dying
People I love crying. Crashing into the mind
When I'm lying there
I see my fears stare at me. And never are they happy
(Pause)
Marc: My illness is destroying my barrier to reality
Letting my soul look at hatred and feel hatred's voice
It conjures up my jealousy until I can not see, anything else (its not destiny)
I lose everything, until I can't think of doing anything else
I'm stuck in between what's real and what is my dream
I want it to happen just so I can scream
I push them away 'till I'm tearing through the seam
I cannot crawl out, my lies they can see
This hole is too big for me to try and breathe
So please, just let me die in it, please
Just let me die in it please
Cécile: No, I won't
(Pause)
Marc: When I'm lying no where.
I see nothing. I see hating
And hurting and people
Screaming and burning
And my own fears taking over
Wars breaking the boundaries
And I cower. I let them take over
I let them break my head
And take the pain instead
Of trying to conquer it. I know
I must conquer it, but I can't
There is no answer.
Do you understand.
Cécile: I can't feel your pain.
But I've gone through almost the same
I understand you are in hell
I understand there's nothing to gain
If you let it take over
I'll try to understand that you can't
I'll try to understand for you, Marc
I'll try to understand.
Scene 7-
(The Night)
A D A# A Dm
Marc: Only see what I want you to see
I've a mask on that's frightening me
I hide from the truth, I hide from you
In my mind, there's nothing I can do
Only see what I want you to believe
Trying to help others when I can't breathe
Trying to escort them when i can't even leave
Myself, please, give some help to me
F G C Am
Marc: When I am no longer here
I've shown myself, I can't conquer fear
With my right hand I'll fade away
Out of place, out of mind I'll stay
And when the darkness comes
I'll hold my head away from the sun
The light will disappear it'll all be gone
And i won't be able to hurt anyone
(Phone Call)
A D A# A Dm
Cécile: What's wrong. Are you okay?
Marc: I just want the pain to go away.
Cécile: It might leave, if you can hold it.
Marc: Here's my soul, I've gone and sold it.
Cécile: You're lying to yourself, you can conquer it you can win
Marc: I have tried and I am tired, of telling people all the same
F G C Am
Look at me, can't I get home?
Nothing's safe, not my mind
Cécile: Listen here, you can go home
Marc: No I can't, I'm out of time
No I won't try suicide
I don't want to die
I want to love my life
And I don't want that to be a lie
Cécile: What is wrong. Are you okay?
Marc: I just want the pain to go away.
Cécile: Well you're not thinking clear.
Marc: I'm fed up with thinking fear.
Cécile: What is wrong. Are you okay?
Marc: I hate that phrase, just get away
I've caused too much harm
There's no reason for you to stay
For me
Stay with me, lay with me
Pray with me, die with me
(Die with me)
A D A# A Dm
Marc: Only see what I want you to see
I've a mask on that's frightening me
I hide from the truth, I hide from you
In my mind, there's nothing I can do
Only see what I want you to believe
Trying to help others when I can't breathe
Trying to escort them when i can't even leave
Myself, please, give some help to me
Marc: When I am no longer here
i've shown myself, I can't conquer fear
With my right hand I'll fade away
Out of place, out of mind I'll stay
And when the darkness comes
I'll hold my head away from the sun
The light will disappear it'll all be gone
And i won't be able to hurt anyone