So, if love endures all
Does that mean what I am doing now is good,
Since it is for the sake of my love?
Does that mean feeling guilty every time I say sweetheart,
Lying to him,
Making it sound like he's the only one,
Because it doesn't feel okay
Some days I feel like I can do this,
I can go on loving you, and pretending to like him
Some days I feel like I should just wait until something happens so I can have you.
Like nothing is wrong because I love you, like this isn't wrong.
But other days, I know it is.
I know I should break up with him, or leave you.
But I can't do either
I love you
I can't hurt him
But there are also the days,
The days when I don't want you or him
I want no one.
I want to be alone to my thoughts,
To have time to think deeper
But when I think about it
I know I would be bored.
I want someone,
And what bothers me,
Is that I want YOU.
You, the one I can't understand
The one that isn't falling all over me
You, the one who sometimes loves me
The one who is so hard to read,
It doesn't really matter how you are though
Because at the end of the day
I still want you.