we rip each other apart in silence.
not really holding each other, we lay on the couch,
merely touching.

our minds racing
at a million miles a minute. aching
to know what's on your mind, my mouth
is super-glued shut. and
the only words you say are with
your eyes.

we are both
horrified that if anything is said tonight,
what we have will blow up
in our faces.

are we in love?
or together just to avoid
getting hurt by other people?

instead we torture ourselves, because
you can't have a fight if you never say a word.

-sunshine