Lobotomy -9/10/09

first comes the anesthesia,

but only enough to get me numb.

wide awake, will I feel the pain?

be fearless.

the room is cold and the grinding metal on bone

smells like barbeque;

now I'm hungry.

I'm like a child lost in a crowd,

where are my parents?

show me something I know,

all I see are bodies in blue.

my mind is flows like a river

over a fallen dam,

uncontrollable whisps of thought flit away

as if they never belonged to me.

feels like I'm losing your love,

your love feels lost,

your love loses feeling.

trapped in my skull,

no longer young and defiant

but simply barbaric.

-sunny sharmayne