Judged

How does it feel to be judged?

I would never have known, but now I do

I know how it feels now

It stings your body and aches your heart

It doesn't break you. It kills you

You lose Hope

Faith

Belief

Confidence

I know how it feels now

It was always there following me

I was always being judged

But

I had never felt it

It didn't touch me, It didn't kill me

Today, I truly know how it feels

When someone that you love judges you

Because they have new friends

Friends that seem to be different

Than me

That someone, That friend

Who you thought was your friend

Who promised you

That they would never part

But now they have

I never thought this would ever happen to me

Never thought

But

...

Why are there tears in my eyes?

They trickle downs my cheeks, but no one is there to wipe them

No one is there to comfort me

Tears penetrate into my skin, as I lay in bed looking up into the sky

As I look up for HOPE

I start to dream

...

The world rushes by me

I am alone

Without my love and now my friendship as well

''Please don't listen to their voices'' I scream

My clothes are torn and I am on my knees

''You don't understand what you are doing'' I felt my voice fade

''please...please'' I beg, but there was no one.

You are blinded

Deafen with the words

The words that come out of their mouths

Blinded by the looks they see

I am not like everyone else

I am different

Different

Difference is what separated us now

I was judged, I am judged

Because I will never change who I am

But you did, you changed

I know that you're not coming back

For I am Judged and Broken

And things just can't get any worse than this...

Wishing upon a star...*