1Chapter 0 – Because Twilight had a Preface
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Contains homosexuality
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Sometimes, great strength can be measured in your ability to hold on, to stay and face whatever comes your way, and to never let go of your feelings, and beliefs. It takes strength to stay and fight your fears, or hopes, or desires. But sometimes it takes great strength to let go. To turn away from those you love; to ignore your fears and dreams.
Which is nobler, I wonder?
I always wondered why people thought suicide was the coward's way out. I know that I, for one, don't have the courage to hold a blade to my wrists and end it all, and I've never been afraid of death. Death by your own hands takes greater courage than most have. But it takes courage to keep living, too.
Which is more virtuous, I wonder?
Sometimes compassion can weaken a person. It can prevent them from doing what needs to be done to save lives, or to save their own. It can prevent them from ever living. It can kill them, sometimes. But it also saves lives. It helps people and can get things done. It can prevent evil from taking root, and the will to hurt others cannot exist alongside compassion.
Is it better to have too much or too little, I wonder?
It takes strength, and courage, and compassion to forgive and forget; strength, to overlook your own hurt, courage to trust the perpetrator once more, and compassion to see the perpetrators plight over your own. I don't know which area I'm lacking in, but I can not find the will in my heart to forgive and forget. I have not the strength to forgive them, nor the courage to forget. And I lack the compassion required to spark those two areas. But I no longer have the anger to hate them; they, who are so weak; they, who fear me.
Always so righteous and moral, that belief can be twisted in anyway, so long as it can be justified.
Beastly, corrupted, depraved, destructive, execrable, malevolent, malignant, nefarious, obscene, pernicious, spiteful, vicious, unreasonable…
Human.