10Thanks for the review's. Here is was I promised. No tricks...
"My mom died and here I am happy! My dad got so freaked out he dragged me all the way back here so I could 'Get better' and be a normal kid again!" I turned around and screamed at him. "So now I'm here and I just want you to bring me home"
"How did she die?" He asked.
"Her lungs finally gave up on her" I whispered.
"God I'm sorry B" Caleb said. He never called me B anymore. "But you can't keep doing this shit. Even in the car crash when Leanna died you did this. It wasn't your fault because some drunk driver hit you guys" He told me.
"Whatever, what do you care anyways" I pulled on the doors but he had them locked. I huffed and started walking.
"Fine just do what you always do run away!" he yelled at me.
"Fuck you!" I turned back and slapped him in the face. "You don't know shit about me anymore. Don't call me B, don't call me anything. Go back to ignoring me in public, go back to Drew and Jamie"
"That's what you'd want isn't it? Coward" He said. I laughed softly. Him calling me that wasn't even my issue, it was...
"Didn't you love her?" I asked still turned away from him.
"Love who? Drew – god no"
"Didn't you love Leanne?!" I asked because it was killing me and I felt like I was going to explode.
"Yes" he said. I started walking away. "But not in the way that you think. I loved her like we both loved her, she was my best friend too"
I turned around.
"So who was it then, the day I left you said you where so scared you lost someone you loved" I said.
"I was talking about..." Caleb stopped and when it was clear he didn't plain on finishing I laughed humorlessly. Screw Caleb and his mockery, I took off my shoes and began walking.
By Monday on the last week of March everything died down. The only place I heard bitch being chanted where by Drew and Jamie. Since the party it had slowly gone away with the occasional song and a few choice words being spoken, but when I came to school today I didn't hear but one word. Minus Drew and Jamie of course. They where never going to get over their hatred for me. Jamie I personally could understand we hadn't been friends since middle school when Caleb turned her down for the Halloween dance. Was it my fault he used me as an excuse so he could get away with taking both me and Leanne out because he was to shy to ask Leanne to go with just him. He was my friend so even if he didn't tell me I knew I was his cover and I didn't have a problem with that back then. Right? Right.
It was so different I found my self double checking to see if people where talking to me each time a profanity was spoken. It was weird change, but a pleasant one nonetheless. Me and Caleb haven't talked since the argument a week ago. I found out that flowers where sent to the graveyard my mom was buried at. I figured they were from him, I just accepted that he did know my mom and sometimes when he used to go down with me I always thought she secretly liked him better than me.
Everyone always seen me as the corrupter of our little three-o. Leanne was the fun but tame, Caleb the wild one, and I was the instigator. It was actually the other way around except for one; Caleb was still the wild; I the fun and tame; and on most nights, if not all, Leanne was the instigator. The corrupter.
The only difference was I never hid what bad influence I was, Leanne hid it perfectly well. I wanted to have fun but knew when to stop but Leanne was the reason for all of our most wild nights. Though if it wasn't her it was Caleb. The same night we got into the car crash I was the one drunk, and Caleb insisted that I went home to rest my 'virgin' head. Leanne was the least drunk she only had two soft drinks and she seemed perfectly fine enough to drive us home. Caleb wanted to stay so we let him.
If I kept to my complaining self I would have been the designated driver waiting for Caleb and Leanne to get crashed enough to drag them home. It's not like I didn't crash and have fun to but I was always sober. I had a experience with liquor and it turns out I couldn't hold it. Though Leanne was so good at doing what she did in our three-o I was drunk by twelve. I still couldn't hold it. So when It turned out that Leanne took the long way home because I was to out of it to tell her the short cut I always used. Instead we were on the exact road that idiot was driving on that we never took and the car hit us.
She's dead, I'm here and it's all because I got drunk and never told her to take the back roads instead of the road that Idiot driver was speeding on. So she's dead, my mom's dead because of her dumb smoking habit and I'm still here.
Caleb hates me because I took the one person he loved just a tad bit more than me, and I deserve it. After all if I didn't what I knew I couldn't handle I'd be laughing here with Leanne and Caleb about Jamie's relentless pursuit. We would have taken the back roads and slept in our own beds instead of the hospitals. Everyone hates me because they didn't know who was driving because I was the instigator they thought it just had to be me. I pulled poor old Leanne to death in their eyes.
"Red or blue" Raven asked me, we where talking about what colour she should wear on her date with Tyler.
"Blue, keep making your hair offset your look. It clearly works" I said.
"Don't you know how to make a girl feel like a million bucks" She picked me up from my house since my car has officially failed on me. Are arms where locked together as we crossed the quad. I never wore socks with my skirt I always wore the black tights that none of the other girls wore. Not enough skin for their liking. In my opinion it made the uniform look much better then it never did.
The bruise on my back, the one from the biggest fight me and Dominic had, the one about me leaving was still going strong on my back. It faded as much as it could but I don't think the dark colour would ever leave. The other one on my breast bone was hardly there anymore, it never puffed up like the other's before.
Dominic stopped calling when I told him I'd tell my dad. The one of the many thing's my dad was good for was keeping away boys. After that time I got caught kissing Jeremy Smith in front of my door my dad made it clear he didn't like it. By the next day in 9th grade everyone dropped me off at the driveway.
Now every time I wanted to tell a guy to stay away I just mention Adrian and they'd get the hint with out getting It. Clever huh? I even acted like it was a loss to see them go, for like a minute until I saw their car disappear around the turn. I'd call Caleb and tell him how horrible it was - he always seemed amused and satisfied by that. He told be a good story could always get him to sleep.
In first period I made sure to not look to the back of the class since I walked in. I could feel his eyes burning a hole in my back. I ignored it like I've been doing the past week. He tried calling but I told my dad I didn't want to speak to him, my dad answered with.
"Are you sure because I think it would be good if you talked to him" He pushed the house phone to me so I pushed it back.
"No It wouldn't" My dad sighed and continued to hand muff the phone.
"I know you've been waiting to talk to him" In that moment I wondered just how much my dad watched me when I wasn't looking. I'd have to try harder to fake for him. I just shook my head and went back up stairs.
Since Adrian liked Caleb instead of telling Caleb the truth and saying what I told him to. That I didn't want the phone but better yet just never call back. He instead lied to Caleb and said I was in the shower. Adrian actually said it in a I'm sorry sort of way. He never did that.
A paper fell on my desk old school.
Friends?
-Caleb.
I don't know how long I sat there looking at the offending piece of wrinkled paper. I looked back to see Drew trying to get Caleb's attention he was looking over at me and that hot Indian boy was finding this amusing. I turned back around because I still didn't know what I wanted to say. I didn't want to be Caleb's friend I wanted... shit I don't know what I wanted. I knew that I didn't want to be his friend we where agreeably I'm sure if I asked past that. There were so many things we needed to talk about and I'm not sure If I wanted to talk about any of those things right now. So I folded up the paper and put it in my bag, where I kept a lot of my things.
At lunch I laughed at the endless joke's Tyler and Jace supplied us with. Me and Raven were holding our stomachs as they talked about Suzy Hotchkiss and all the people she hadn't been in. It was slightly disgusting and completely amusing. You know every school always had that one girl, well she was it. They where talking about who would never do her more than the other.
"I'd rather hook up with the ugliest girl ever, even if she resembled a gorilla to get away form Suzy" Jace said.
"I would jump off a sky scraper to excape her legs" Tyler said. I laughed 'till tears came out. Jace and Tyler had taken it upon themselves to sit with us since last week. Apparently we were the coolest girls to ever happen, and the fact that I happened twice made it even better.
Last Thursday Jace asked me out on a date and I said that I didn't want to get into any of that stuff right now. He raised his eyebrow like he knew something I didn't know. Since then we've just been friends. Joking around and stuff. Tyler and Raven where officially a pair now.
"Is it just me or did we just go through half of the lunch with out having one bitch thrown at me. I feel like I'm waiting for some big attack" I liked that they never asked about Leanne. I knew that Raven must have asked Tyler by now because I sure as hell was not planing on telling her.
"You didn't hear" Tyler asked. Raven kicked him from under the table.
"What didn't I hear?" I looked at Jace.
"Caleb said if he heard one more thing directed at you other than a compliment he'd shove a fist so fast in their mouth there wouldn't be time for a gag reflex" Jace answered.
"Oh" Was my smart reply. I looked over at Caleb. Caleb wasn't the best looking guy in the school. In my opinion and Raven's Jace did look better than him but not by a long shot. We decided that Caleb's personality made him the most popular. The only thing that made Jace look better was his strong jaw.
Caleb was leaning back in his chair nodding to whatever the hot Indian guy was saying to him. He tapped his pencil on the lunch table to an imaginary beat in his head. Suddenly he stopped and locked eyes right with me. My breath stopped from being caught staring.
Caleb was easy on the eyes. I was all about guys who were easy on the eyes. He never cared that I wasn't white, nothing like that ever mattered to him. He was just easy on the eyes and if I was being truthful – which I am – I fell for Caleb back when he fought dumbass The Dragon. I'm still ashamed to state his name even to my self. He took my virginity. Apparently Dragon Boy wasn't good enough for me and that's when I fell rock hard fast.
To bad he was pining for Leanne. So me being me I took it upon myself to stick them together.
"So..." Raven supported for my lack of words. I flashed my eyes back to them not really being with them, my mind was still on what they said. "I think we should all head for our class now" She pulled Tyler away. When Jace walked me to the gym door I snapped out of it.
"He really said that?" I asked.
"Yup, sent a email to everyone and everything"Jace smiled. "He even broke up with Drew because of it"
By the way how do you guys feel about Jace, and or Dominic, just asking. Promise.